so much to say

[dezigirl]

I have so many thoughts that I want to get down here right now, but it's like I can't bring myself to do it. Maybe it's because half of them are things that I am trying to keep back there in a jar.....

Sometimes I think I am a tower of strength considering everything I have been through, and them sometimes I think I 'm not, I just choose to step over stuff so quickly that I never have to actually *deal* with it...I'm not sure but I might have a lot of jars in the back of my head closed up.

who knows...I think of myself as a realistic person..who is honest with herself, yet, I think as I get older I find myself trying to justify peoples actions and such...hell I don't know.

Overall I am actually doing very well considering recent events. I have so much in life to be thankful for, I would be a fool to wallow in self pitty. The truth of the matter is that I have a great life, but I think I like the sad, depressing things sometimes, it makes all those sad movies, sad music so much better. : )

I have recognized this trait in many people, especially those close to me.

"you can't have the sweet without the sour."