my dreams are never that interesting. if they are, it's only because of how little they can deviate from what i live through with my eyes open. time is never a matter and conversations never really seem to take place in any real sense just neat packets of the least amount of necessary verbage delivered in practical and probable spurts. but the ( Read more... )

Opening credits: joy division: the eternal ( Read more... )

school lost all fun 14 hours ago. no more senselessness just finalssssss. write some essays compute some numbers write some more essays and bullllllshit. let's go home. let's leave home. want to watch tv. discovery channel and the pittsburgh pirates. enough with irish writers, read something fun. watch some movies. cuddddddddle make ( Read more... )

sometimes i can't help but think that life is pretty funny. especially when it's almost impossibly hard to realize what day it is. 6 hour round trip to go to mchenry illinois for some plum garden chinese food. i ate the food. i enjoyed it too. get back to south bend and begin to drink i guess and not stop drinking i guess. eventually i drive ( Read more... )

i think my best friend at school might like me. he's a dude. i feel weird. SOMEONE LIKES ME! OMG!!!

call me fucking retarded. i am gauche. i am awkward. i am nonsense lacking words to make points not right through what say i want but fail time again no. i am not a hero. i am not stephen dedalus. there's no room for invention when you're just blatantly stupid. my wings will never make me fly as i've already crashed and burned. i am the dark ( Read more... )

i need a dog.

i just left my seat to piss. i did so, zipper action, hand washing with soap, and blow dryer all included. open the door and begin walking back. i keep my eyes averted to the ground at all times and it has now paid off. literally. on the ground, crumpled, discarded and (as of yet but not very likely soon) forgotten was the green on which ( Read more... )

so the number of times i've updated recently is beginning to border on the obscene. but i swear i can explain this. not in any clear manner but i will attribute it to the following ( Read more... )

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at?: it's hard to miss my nose ( Read more... )