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i am definitely missing portland & san francisco & newcastle & melbourne right now. total itchy feet but not much to do about it. all my friends are anywhere else, i'm no good at meeting new folks, & i am at school til late most every day. oh & fucken turkey. as much as that trip was shit, turkey itself was incredible. incredible. i am looking at a photo of me being mopey in front of Rumi's convent & it was so cold & peaceful, gosh, i really want to get back there minus stupid western tour group soon.
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i have been quitting smoking for a while now, & right now i am having max 2 smokes a day, which are mostly herbal mix, hardly any tobacco. probably amounts to one cigarette a week in terms of nicotine. i tried to trick my brain, & it worked for a few weeks, & now my body is catching up & i have mega withdrawal flu times. it feels fucken great. so much easier than any other time. living in a smoke-free house has made it so, so much easier. with the big health drop that happened when i got back from turkey, i kind of have no choice, but i'm glad. i haven't been getting my x rays or blood tests or seeing my specialists, & i missed a follow up with my GP today, but i feel like i know how to handle it. i've been back to the gym, which is pretty much at the end of my street, which is so convenient, i am no good at exercising in that environment but it is something to do when i'm bored or fidgety, which is always, cos no one's calling me to come out in this city. mmm.
fen is working almost full time these days & it is pretty great. seems like a supportive environment, & he is stressed but only in healthy amounts. so much less stressed than when we were doing NOTHING.
it feels so straight & narrow, but that's why we came here. a couple years of bullshit & then we can fuck off forever.
totally freaking out that i have to maintain an average of 75 in all my classes at school or they'll drop me down a notch into a different degree & i won't be able to do honours. at the moment my average is 64. poppycock.
i love & miss everyone lots. i have been a bad cunt lately, but i promise to be a good cunt from now on.
healthtimes.
i have been quitting smoking for a while now, & right now i am having max 2 smokes a day, which are mostly herbal mix, hardly any tobacco. probably amounts to one cigarette a week in terms of nicotine. i tried to trick my brain, & it worked for a few weeks, & now my body is catching up & i have mega withdrawal flu times. it feels fucken great. so much easier than any other time. living in a smoke-free house has made it so, so much easier. with the big health drop that happened when i got back from turkey, i kind of have no choice, but i'm glad. i haven't been getting my x rays or blood tests or seeing my specialists, & i missed a follow up with my GP today, but i feel like i know how to handle it. i've been back to the gym, which is pretty much at the end of my street, which is so convenient, i am no good at exercising in that environment but it is something to do when i'm bored or fidgety, which is always, cos no one's calling me to come out in this city. mmm.
fen is working almost full time these days & it is pretty great. seems like a supportive environment, & he is stressed but only in healthy amounts. so much less stressed than when we were doing NOTHING.
it feels so straight & narrow, but that's why we came here. a couple years of bullshit & then we can fuck off forever.
totally freaking out that i have to maintain an average of 75 in all my classes at school or they'll drop me down a notch into a different degree & i won't be able to do honours. at the moment my average is 64. poppycock.
i love & miss everyone lots. i have been a bad cunt lately, but i promise to be a good cunt from now on.