Bored
Hey, it's been awhile, but things haven't been too eventful. Well, after the temp work for two weeks I still don't have a job, but I did manage to get my permit today. Only problem is, my parents have flat out refused to teach me to drive. I can't rely on Mark to teach me because it's not fair to him. Why should he have to put up with teaching me when my parents wont. I don't want to wreck his car and jack up his insurance. I love Mark. And I know I could rely on him, but I don't want to ask that of him, ya know.
Other than that life is so boring right now. I'm not at Mark's so there's nothing to do and nowhere to go cause god help us all if my parents do anything special for me. Other than doing odd chores like clean up after the new muts they got, I've been overlooked. That's why I like being at Mark's house. Nobody yells at me over there. Someone left a cup in the living room and OOOOH BIG SUPRISE it's my fault and that argument usually leads to...Rachel when are you gonna pay your bills...even if I paid them the day before! And then it goes to you need a good job...or when you gonna use your certificate. It's rare that I ever feel love in this house and most of the time it's when Mark comes to see me.
I'm not feeling all too well right now. I think it was something I ate, but my stomach is all bleh and I'm missing Mark like crazy and I'm mood swinging cause of the birth control i'm on so i feel all...not quite depressed...certainly not sad. Just bored and a little lonely. Sissy's home but you think she wants to hang with the older sis. NO! The only time she wants to hang is if Mark and I are giving her a ride to the mall with one of her friends in tow. I'm ranting now, but i'm feeling better. I'm just moody and there's no real reason why. I wish I had a car and my license...and I WISH KRISSY WOULD COME HOME!
Except for Mark i'm all alone. I don't have any gal pals to chill with and discuss problems with. Kris and I used to talk nonstop about our guys or about our friends and what they're doing now...don't ya just love KARMA! Let's just say a few people I used to know who were not so nice are a little different and I mean in a bad way. *cough*Katie*cough*Fat. And she used to look me down cause she was the rail. What goes around comes around. Anyways, Krissy is still at boot camp and I miss her. I want my friend back. I feel so lonely without her. I love Mark...and I'll scream that if I have to, but even he understands there's a best girl friend void that needs filling and only one person can do that. Mark is my love, my life, my inspiration and my best best best friend...but every girl needs her girl just like every guy has his boy...and I'm talking about friends you sick freaks. So yeahs, KRISTEN! COME HOME SOON!
I haven't talked to Candyc in so long, but I don't much care. She never calls or wants to hang out so why should I be the one to call her all the time. She doesn't want to be friends anymore, hey that's cool, but at least when I got a man i didn't drop my friends.
The other day was terrible for me. I believe it was...Friday. Yeah. I woke up and walked in the rain to my job interview at Peebles. When I got there they told me she had left early for a doctor's appointment and wouldn't be returning to work that day. So I left and walked another half mile to my optometrist to get a form filled out so I could get my permit. On the way I was talking to Mark, but at one point he stopped texting and I thought he was mad at me. Just before I reached my optometrist a miraculous thing happened. Miracle, my supervisor from six flags and good friend, pulled up and gave me a lift home. An hour later I got a call from my optometrist telling me the paper work was done. So I walked there, picked it up and was on my way home. I got to this one point where I needed to cross the street and I was literally standing there for about ten minutes waiting for an open spot in rush hour traffic. The moment I crossed the street, Miracle pulls up again and gives me another ride home. She is such a good friend and now that I have her number I have a new buddy to hang with. Then that night I didn't get a hold of Mark til late and I broke out in tears cause I thought that my behavior with all the calls and texts would have had him pulling the plug, but in the end he said he loves me, he's not going anywhere and he just needed some space. I have been spending alittle too much time at his house so I was so relieved that he wasn't mad at me. A little irritated at my behavior but not totally mad.
I so miss my baby. Well if he reads this...I LOVE YOU __insertnickname__! MUAH! I didn't want to go blabbing my pet name for you if anyone else happens to read this. LOL. But you know what I mean.
Other than that life is so boring right now. I'm not at Mark's so there's nothing to do and nowhere to go cause god help us all if my parents do anything special for me. Other than doing odd chores like clean up after the new muts they got, I've been overlooked. That's why I like being at Mark's house. Nobody yells at me over there. Someone left a cup in the living room and OOOOH BIG SUPRISE it's my fault and that argument usually leads to...Rachel when are you gonna pay your bills...even if I paid them the day before! And then it goes to you need a good job...or when you gonna use your certificate. It's rare that I ever feel love in this house and most of the time it's when Mark comes to see me.
I'm not feeling all too well right now. I think it was something I ate, but my stomach is all bleh and I'm missing Mark like crazy and I'm mood swinging cause of the birth control i'm on so i feel all...not quite depressed...certainly not sad. Just bored and a little lonely. Sissy's home but you think she wants to hang with the older sis. NO! The only time she wants to hang is if Mark and I are giving her a ride to the mall with one of her friends in tow. I'm ranting now, but i'm feeling better. I'm just moody and there's no real reason why. I wish I had a car and my license...and I WISH KRISSY WOULD COME HOME!
Except for Mark i'm all alone. I don't have any gal pals to chill with and discuss problems with. Kris and I used to talk nonstop about our guys or about our friends and what they're doing now...don't ya just love KARMA! Let's just say a few people I used to know who were not so nice are a little different and I mean in a bad way. *cough*Katie*cough*Fat. And she used to look me down cause she was the rail. What goes around comes around. Anyways, Krissy is still at boot camp and I miss her. I want my friend back. I feel so lonely without her. I love Mark...and I'll scream that if I have to, but even he understands there's a best girl friend void that needs filling and only one person can do that. Mark is my love, my life, my inspiration and my best best best friend...but every girl needs her girl just like every guy has his boy...and I'm talking about friends you sick freaks. So yeahs, KRISTEN! COME HOME SOON!
I haven't talked to Candyc in so long, but I don't much care. She never calls or wants to hang out so why should I be the one to call her all the time. She doesn't want to be friends anymore, hey that's cool, but at least when I got a man i didn't drop my friends.
The other day was terrible for me. I believe it was...Friday. Yeah. I woke up and walked in the rain to my job interview at Peebles. When I got there they told me she had left early for a doctor's appointment and wouldn't be returning to work that day. So I left and walked another half mile to my optometrist to get a form filled out so I could get my permit. On the way I was talking to Mark, but at one point he stopped texting and I thought he was mad at me. Just before I reached my optometrist a miraculous thing happened. Miracle, my supervisor from six flags and good friend, pulled up and gave me a lift home. An hour later I got a call from my optometrist telling me the paper work was done. So I walked there, picked it up and was on my way home. I got to this one point where I needed to cross the street and I was literally standing there for about ten minutes waiting for an open spot in rush hour traffic. The moment I crossed the street, Miracle pulls up again and gives me another ride home. She is such a good friend and now that I have her number I have a new buddy to hang with. Then that night I didn't get a hold of Mark til late and I broke out in tears cause I thought that my behavior with all the calls and texts would have had him pulling the plug, but in the end he said he loves me, he's not going anywhere and he just needed some space. I have been spending alittle too much time at his house so I was so relieved that he wasn't mad at me. A little irritated at my behavior but not totally mad.
I so miss my baby. Well if he reads this...I LOVE YOU __insertnickname__! MUAH! I didn't want to go blabbing my pet name for you if anyone else happens to read this. LOL. But you know what I mean.