i miss him
only my best friend in the whole world.. up until about a month ago.
Zack and i started talkin about a month ago and since then Hector hasn't really spoken to me at all.
the ironic part is that i didn't actually do anything at all. if anything he should be making the greatest effort to maintain our friendship. HE tried to make the moves on ME wtf. what sort of friend does that. i said it was weird as soon as he initiated it and he kept going. how does one tell their best friend that even though they love you you will never love them back.
i love the kid to death but it will never be a romantic relationship..
i'm inlove with a boy who is afraid of commitment. zack says that its not that he wants to be with anyone else or that i am anything less than everything he could ever want but he's just afraid. i don't get it. probably never will. i just know that i love him and i'll wait if that's what it takes. i think one day he just won't be scared anymore but who can really say.
everytime zack and i hang out hector gets upset and won't really speak to zack for at least a day or two.. zack will ask if he's upset and he says no but he can't even say my name or hector gets upset and locks himself in his room all day and sleeps. zack has gotten to the point where we don't even hang out when hector is awake or not at work. he asks hector's permission to hang out. i'm fucking sorry but if i don't even ask my parents permission to hang out with people i'm sure not fucking asking permission of my friends to hang out with someone, not to mention they'r supposed to be best friends por vida.
its just not fair. he's become very self-centered and stubborn. also very sensitive to very stupid things that shouldn't upset him... or anyone for that matter.
i'm tired.
just tired.
i know that any good friendship requires its share of work but when does it become too much..
too awkward, too frustrating, too depressing, too drain the life out of me and make me apologize for everything i never did wrong to begin with.
i'm hangin on because i miss my best friend but its pretty close to that giving up point now
Zack and i started talkin about a month ago and since then Hector hasn't really spoken to me at all.
the ironic part is that i didn't actually do anything at all. if anything he should be making the greatest effort to maintain our friendship. HE tried to make the moves on ME wtf. what sort of friend does that. i said it was weird as soon as he initiated it and he kept going. how does one tell their best friend that even though they love you you will never love them back.
i love the kid to death but it will never be a romantic relationship..
i'm inlove with a boy who is afraid of commitment. zack says that its not that he wants to be with anyone else or that i am anything less than everything he could ever want but he's just afraid. i don't get it. probably never will. i just know that i love him and i'll wait if that's what it takes. i think one day he just won't be scared anymore but who can really say.
everytime zack and i hang out hector gets upset and won't really speak to zack for at least a day or two.. zack will ask if he's upset and he says no but he can't even say my name or hector gets upset and locks himself in his room all day and sleeps. zack has gotten to the point where we don't even hang out when hector is awake or not at work. he asks hector's permission to hang out. i'm fucking sorry but if i don't even ask my parents permission to hang out with people i'm sure not fucking asking permission of my friends to hang out with someone, not to mention they'r supposed to be best friends por vida.
its just not fair. he's become very self-centered and stubborn. also very sensitive to very stupid things that shouldn't upset him... or anyone for that matter.
i'm tired.
just tired.
i know that any good friendship requires its share of work but when does it become too much..
too awkward, too frustrating, too depressing, too drain the life out of me and make me apologize for everything i never did wrong to begin with.
i'm hangin on because i miss my best friend but its pretty close to that giving up point now