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**warning in a ranting mood**
Why is it that these days everyhting revolves around looks? Why the fuck does it matter if someone is ugly or fat? I'm sick of all the skinnny people complaining how they need to loose weight etc, who cares???? if i'm kinda ok wiht how large i am then why isn't the rest of the world. Guy made a good point, when he was fat he was made fun of, and now he's not... hmmm coincidence? This is not directed to anyone at all, but i think it's a little annoying how people single out virgins.. why should that matter anyways? juts because you didn't want, couldn't have, or wanted to wait to have sex why is it a big deal? A comment from today... "Well what if i looked like ashlyn noble?" -me "Well then we wouldn't be sitting ere talking to you"-guy, katie, jessica...." if you were like her you'd be ugly and a bitch, and right now your just pretty and a bitch...jk"-guy that really bothered me, and no i don't want an apology you can't help how you think. thats another reason why i want to go with ash, and i can hear katie now saying here we go again lol, but really she doesn't judge someone by how they look, i'm already fat, but if i were ugly too she wouldn't give a fuck. I'm also sick of people pretending that i look good, because i dont, i know i dont.. you have to realise that i already know this. This is juts another reason why id ont want to go to grad, i'll just be judged by my weight yet again... i don't even wanna go to calgary i just wanna go away period.. why am i doing this? why do i give up so easily.. when thigns get hard i just leave?/? fuck! i hate internal conflicts i wish they'd juts leave.. i want to be normal, happy, smart, not such a bitch, friendly, pleasant, NOT ME. I know i've complained about this so much, but if you dont like it dont read this! i've already warned you i'm in a ranting mood! i want my dad to be happy.. why cant i tlak to him like a normal daughter??? i try ir eally do but nothing, of corse! if i wasn't born i think everyone would be better off... I DON'T WANT PITY FYI i havent made an impact on anything, or anyone.. all i've done is act like a fatal poison....i'm sooo sick of this!!!!
Why is it that these days everyhting revolves around looks? Why the fuck does it matter if someone is ugly or fat? I'm sick of all the skinnny people complaining how they need to loose weight etc, who cares???? if i'm kinda ok wiht how large i am then why isn't the rest of the world. Guy made a good point, when he was fat he was made fun of, and now he's not... hmmm coincidence? This is not directed to anyone at all, but i think it's a little annoying how people single out virgins.. why should that matter anyways? juts because you didn't want, couldn't have, or wanted to wait to have sex why is it a big deal? A comment from today... "Well what if i looked like ashlyn noble?" -me "Well then we wouldn't be sitting ere talking to you"-guy, katie, jessica...." if you were like her you'd be ugly and a bitch, and right now your just pretty and a bitch...jk"-guy that really bothered me, and no i don't want an apology you can't help how you think. thats another reason why i want to go with ash, and i can hear katie now saying here we go again lol, but really she doesn't judge someone by how they look, i'm already fat, but if i were ugly too she wouldn't give a fuck. I'm also sick of people pretending that i look good, because i dont, i know i dont.. you have to realise that i already know this. This is juts another reason why id ont want to go to grad, i'll just be judged by my weight yet again... i don't even wanna go to calgary i just wanna go away period.. why am i doing this? why do i give up so easily.. when thigns get hard i just leave?/? fuck! i hate internal conflicts i wish they'd juts leave.. i want to be normal, happy, smart, not such a bitch, friendly, pleasant, NOT ME. I know i've complained about this so much, but if you dont like it dont read this! i've already warned you i'm in a ranting mood! i want my dad to be happy.. why cant i tlak to him like a normal daughter??? i try ir eally do but nothing, of corse! if i wasn't born i think everyone would be better off... I DON'T WANT PITY FYI i havent made an impact on anything, or anyone.. all i've done is act like a fatal poison....i'm sooo sick of this!!!!