Never saw it coming..
After my long talk last night, things go going in wierd directions. Mike and I talked for like 3 hours last night and he was telling me how it may not work between us with him being gone all the time and how he wants me to keep my options open while he's gone and all this stuff and i got really upset thinking that this was his way of ending it....it's not he still wants to be with me but it's still really hard for me to grasp that he's afraid that i will find someone else or that i'm gonna hate him for not being around enough. He's afraid that he's gonna change so much that i'm no longer gonna love him. But i don't think like that...it's not like i'm gonna have no contact with him for the 13 weeks...we will have letter so i will know what's going on. Which does suck but i know that no matter how he is i'll still love him!! I mean if my mom and dad made it through my dad being away, i'm sure we can make it through the 13 weeks at least. If after the 13 weeks we don't like what's going on or don't think we can go the whole time he'll be gone before we get "together" then that's when we should call it off and worry about things like that...how can we start talking about what could happen until we find out if we can make it happen while being apart for more then 2 weeks. I know though that no matter how much he changes or I change that i'm still gonna wanna be with him. I just don't know how to make him see that. If he's leaving in 2 days then i don't want him to worry the whole time he's gone. No matter what he says or thinks, I'm waiting for him till he gets back. I won't make any decisions on our relationship till he gets back home.