wow long time livejournal...lol
Well, yeah it has been ages since i last updated this thing. I have been going through a whole bunch of stuff since I have been back in florida. Didn't get a chance to see old friends before they all went home for school but i am going to try and see you guys in the fall. I was in New Port Richey for a few months, was working as a nanny for someone I called a friend. I moved down there because I had more of a prospect of getting a job that I was interested in. I met a whole bunch of people that i am really glad i met but i ended up having to leave that situation because it just got bad. I never did get an outside job like i had hoped i would be able to because i ended up having to take care of the baby almost 24/7 and the mother wasn't taking care of the baby, but she complained that he thought i was his mother. well no duh woman, i was the one giving him the most attention. and then she accused me of not putting him first that he needed more and more attention during the day. and something she didn't understand was that yes i was on the computer but what she didn't see because she had her head stuck so far up her ass and working so much, was that he was almost always in my lap even when i was on the computer, and that i was interacting with him. it upset me to no end that she was accusing me of not giving him enough attention when she was the one guilty of not giving the baby enough attention....and it was just getting bad and my friends refused to let me go down a road that they saw me going down...so for now i am back up in leesburg temporarily until the place i am moving into meets my requirements which means i will be busting ass to clean it whenever i get up there to make sure it is ready when i am ready to move in there....will also be putting in applications at places around the area to try and make sure i can get a job when i move in and all that...my cell is still the same for those of you that have it and if you don't then message me and i will give it to ya....
ok so thats it for now....OH YEAH i got me a car hehehehe :D
oh yeah i forgot more stuff....lol......i have been sort of seeing this guy on and off....not like a serious thing i don't think....i don't want it to get serious in all honesty but i mean....i have a feeling that i am starting to get more than just friends feelings you know? i have been seeing him for a little more than a month. He is an amazing person in most ways...he has baggage but then in all honesty who doesn't? we are doing the friends with benefits thing....and sometimes it is just hard to keep the friend part just that without getting attatched. but damn he is awesome to hang around with lol....and hehehe....there is just so much more that i won't divulge in here lol....can message me if you wanna know more about that lmfao. and he and i go back and forth wit wit games and all that stuff...its nice to be able to match wits with someone lol who won't get made or look at you like you are a martian.....but then....when he and i are hanging out there are times when he will spend most of the night just ignoring me and then expect me to be all peachy keen and ready to play after not paying attention to me all night.....tell me wtf is that about? honestly i would really like to know....because it really doesn't make sense to me drunk or sober and i can't help but get a little upset when he does it. and yet i am willing to take him up to charlotte and back so he can get his stuff from a friends house.....that is a ten hour drive there and then ten hours back...long ass drive....granted he is paying for the gas and everything......but what is that really? a friend doing a favor??? or a girl getting attatched doing a favor? ugh i am babbling...so i will stop
ciao for now
shana
ok so thats it for now....OH YEAH i got me a car hehehehe :D
oh yeah i forgot more stuff....lol......i have been sort of seeing this guy on and off....not like a serious thing i don't think....i don't want it to get serious in all honesty but i mean....i have a feeling that i am starting to get more than just friends feelings you know? i have been seeing him for a little more than a month. He is an amazing person in most ways...he has baggage but then in all honesty who doesn't? we are doing the friends with benefits thing....and sometimes it is just hard to keep the friend part just that without getting attatched. but damn he is awesome to hang around with lol....and hehehe....there is just so much more that i won't divulge in here lol....can message me if you wanna know more about that lmfao. and he and i go back and forth wit wit games and all that stuff...its nice to be able to match wits with someone lol who won't get made or look at you like you are a martian.....but then....when he and i are hanging out there are times when he will spend most of the night just ignoring me and then expect me to be all peachy keen and ready to play after not paying attention to me all night.....tell me wtf is that about? honestly i would really like to know....because it really doesn't make sense to me drunk or sober and i can't help but get a little upset when he does it. and yet i am willing to take him up to charlotte and back so he can get his stuff from a friends house.....that is a ten hour drive there and then ten hours back...long ass drive....granted he is paying for the gas and everything......but what is that really? a friend doing a favor??? or a girl getting attatched doing a favor? ugh i am babbling...so i will stop
ciao for now
shana