So…..
Today is one of those days where I am feeling beyond overwhelmed by all there is to do. Oh, I don’t have to do anything more than anyone else has to do, but I just can’t seem to deal. For instance, the housework just hasn’t been getting done here this week. I’m okay with that in the evenings, because in the evenings I am exhausted and it just doesn’t seem so bad, and all I want to do is catch up on email, maybe read, and go to sleep. But after a fitful night’s sleep, I’ll wake up with my tummy hurting and look around and see what all I should have gotten done that I didn’t do. As well as more things that now need to be done. That is enough to make me want to crawl right back into bed, pull the covers over my head, assume the fetal position, and forget that I even have responsibilities. Which, of course, only adds to the burdens.
Do sleep aids make you quit dreaming? I’ve used sleep aids so seldom I can’t remember. I don’t really want to stop dreaming, because some of my dreams are really good! Escapism is the only thing that keeps me sane most days, and a good run of good dreams makes me happy, motivated, and ready to face the world! However, I have a lot of dreams that are just bizarre, unsettling, or straight up stressful, which leaves me feeling weird, paranoid, and exhausted. And I already don’t sleep well at night because my husband and I keep opposite schedules and he is literally up all night, on his computer, with the tv on, in our bedroom. I can sleep through the noise a bit, but he usually wakes me up a time or two during the night, like he did last night.
The first time was because my phone was going dead and beeping. Then later he was miffed because the sub sandwich I’d gotten him had jalapenos on it, which he likes, but only if the sandwich is fresh, and not put in the fridge, and he has told me this several times before. ::slaps forehead:: (that’s ME slapping MY forehead, in case it’s not obvious.) How could I have forgotten? Then he brougt me my phone when the alarm started going off.
I could just drop.
Now I’ve got to get to work. I’ll be back later with my CHBM carnival update and stuff; maybe my mood will improve.
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