New Beginnings
Its been a week since I have posted last, and a lot of things are happening.
For the past six months, I have been at rock bottom. Depressed and almost on the verge of suicide. I felt like things couldn't get any worse. Reasons...there are too many and they are too complicated to explain.
But just within the past two weeks, my days are getting brighter. I have finally started working for one of the nations largest..if not THE largest... food distributors in the nation. Pay is REALLY good and benifits are insane. On top of it all, thanks to live journal, I found a really nice girl that lives not even a half hour away from me. I don't know much about her other than she want to be an elementary school teacher and that she like to have fun. Both of which are important to maintaining a happy life. Teaching is an impressive...and Im dure tiring...occupation. One in which you really have to have heart and passion to be succesful in. and within the time of getting to know her, I believe she will be an amazing teacher and mother one day. I haven't met her yet, but we have a date tonight..if you want to count/call it that. I am not going to lie...I am extremely excited about finally meeting her and hope that she either feels the same way or will feel better about me after tonight. I hope I am not speaking for myself when I say this, but I hope this turns into something great! I know that she will probably read this at some point or another, so I want to say..."What words you read here are only a start to the emotions that I already feel about you. Whether you or I lead boring lives, I would like to live that life beside you. You are an amazing person and I can tell that already, through talking to you. Thank you for being a decent person and making me feel normal again. Its nice to have female companionship... something I haven't had in a very long time. Lets grow together. There is no way but up from here! I know you said that you and men haven't been getting along recently. I want to change that. You will soon see that I am a real man. A man that will never take you for granite and all you got to do is say 'dont leave me' and I wont. I would be there for you through anything. Looking forward to seeing you for the first time in just a few hours!!"
Let this post be a lesson to anyone that reads it. Though it isnt too detailed, I want you all to know that no matter how hard things seem to get, bare through it. As my Sgt. said in the Marine Corp..."After every long dark night, there is a brighter day!" Believe that. It is true.
For the past six months, I have been at rock bottom. Depressed and almost on the verge of suicide. I felt like things couldn't get any worse. Reasons...there are too many and they are too complicated to explain.
But just within the past two weeks, my days are getting brighter. I have finally started working for one of the nations largest..if not THE largest... food distributors in the nation. Pay is REALLY good and benifits are insane. On top of it all, thanks to live journal, I found a really nice girl that lives not even a half hour away from me. I don't know much about her other than she want to be an elementary school teacher and that she like to have fun. Both of which are important to maintaining a happy life. Teaching is an impressive...and Im dure tiring...occupation. One in which you really have to have heart and passion to be succesful in. and within the time of getting to know her, I believe she will be an amazing teacher and mother one day. I haven't met her yet, but we have a date tonight..if you want to count/call it that. I am not going to lie...I am extremely excited about finally meeting her and hope that she either feels the same way or will feel better about me after tonight. I hope I am not speaking for myself when I say this, but I hope this turns into something great! I know that she will probably read this at some point or another, so I want to say..."What words you read here are only a start to the emotions that I already feel about you. Whether you or I lead boring lives, I would like to live that life beside you. You are an amazing person and I can tell that already, through talking to you. Thank you for being a decent person and making me feel normal again. Its nice to have female companionship... something I haven't had in a very long time. Lets grow together. There is no way but up from here! I know you said that you and men haven't been getting along recently. I want to change that. You will soon see that I am a real man. A man that will never take you for granite and all you got to do is say 'dont leave me' and I wont. I would be there for you through anything. Looking forward to seeing you for the first time in just a few hours!!"
Let this post be a lesson to anyone that reads it. Though it isnt too detailed, I want you all to know that no matter how hard things seem to get, bare through it. As my Sgt. said in the Marine Corp..."After every long dark night, there is a brighter day!" Believe that. It is true.