Love: A Memory of Heartache
I just finished the movie Eternal Sunshine on a Spotless Mind starring Jim Carrey. Beautifully written flick. definitely one to check ot for yourself.
Anyways, it really made me think. And to understand where all that follows is coming from you really have to watch the movie.
Why do we love? Why is it that we can fall in and out of love so easily? And when its all said and done with, our minds seemingly erase the very essence of the previous relationship. Is it possible to love someone too much? Or does it always seem to be a one sided street. Alteast it has in my case. Every relatinship I have ever been in has ended violently and quick. One relationship in particular...I was dating a dear friend of mine. I thought I had it all. This girl had a crush on me for years, so she said. When I finally brought myself to loving her, which came abruptly once I actually payed attention to her, it was over. It tore me up inside and I wasn't even around to defend myself. I couldn't prevent the occurences which followed. I left the relationship to better support what I thought was to be the start of our family, and she couldnt bare the thought of me not being there with her. I didn't want to go. I would have much rather wanted to stay just so I could be with her. But we have to make sacrifices in order to bring happiness. When my failed attempt at building a solid foundation for a family happened, I came home; came back to be with the one I loved. But she was gone! She had already found another man and I was just a memory. Why? Why does pain always follow bliss? I was willing to spend my life with this woman and yet, like all other relationships, had my heart ripped in two. Yes, I'll admit it...I'm a romantic. I enjoy spending time with my significant other rather than pretending I'm an alpha male taking all that I can from anyone. I've noticed that it seems as though that is what society has dwindled to becoming. What happened to chivlary? To men being gentlemen? What happened to true love? Is it just me? I haven't had a girlfriend in almost three years. Mainly due to the fact that I feel that I have to have something to bring into the relationship. I don't want to seem like a nothing. I want to have a job, a car, own or on my way to owning a house, etc. I want for my significant other to maintain happiness while with me and know that I would do anything for her. The other reason for my lack of companionship is because of all the stress put upon me by previous encounters. I have always been taken advantage of and used, etc, etc. I get no respect unless I'm giving something. Due to this, I have lost my self esteem and confidence in true love. Through all that I have been through and all that has been I have determined that love is nothing more than memory of Heartache.
Devildog420
Anyways, it really made me think. And to understand where all that follows is coming from you really have to watch the movie.
Why do we love? Why is it that we can fall in and out of love so easily? And when its all said and done with, our minds seemingly erase the very essence of the previous relationship. Is it possible to love someone too much? Or does it always seem to be a one sided street. Alteast it has in my case. Every relatinship I have ever been in has ended violently and quick. One relationship in particular...I was dating a dear friend of mine. I thought I had it all. This girl had a crush on me for years, so she said. When I finally brought myself to loving her, which came abruptly once I actually payed attention to her, it was over. It tore me up inside and I wasn't even around to defend myself. I couldn't prevent the occurences which followed. I left the relationship to better support what I thought was to be the start of our family, and she couldnt bare the thought of me not being there with her. I didn't want to go. I would have much rather wanted to stay just so I could be with her. But we have to make sacrifices in order to bring happiness. When my failed attempt at building a solid foundation for a family happened, I came home; came back to be with the one I loved. But she was gone! She had already found another man and I was just a memory. Why? Why does pain always follow bliss? I was willing to spend my life with this woman and yet, like all other relationships, had my heart ripped in two. Yes, I'll admit it...I'm a romantic. I enjoy spending time with my significant other rather than pretending I'm an alpha male taking all that I can from anyone. I've noticed that it seems as though that is what society has dwindled to becoming. What happened to chivlary? To men being gentlemen? What happened to true love? Is it just me? I haven't had a girlfriend in almost three years. Mainly due to the fact that I feel that I have to have something to bring into the relationship. I don't want to seem like a nothing. I want to have a job, a car, own or on my way to owning a house, etc. I want for my significant other to maintain happiness while with me and know that I would do anything for her. The other reason for my lack of companionship is because of all the stress put upon me by previous encounters. I have always been taken advantage of and used, etc, etc. I get no respect unless I'm giving something. Due to this, I have lost my self esteem and confidence in true love. Through all that I have been through and all that has been I have determined that love is nothing more than memory of Heartache.
Devildog420