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Things never turn out how I expect. I'm home again and this time it's for a month. Surprisingly, I haven't been as bored as I anticipated but then again it hasn't been very long. Last night we were going to go drunk 80s roller skating but we didn't get booze and I blew it off anyway. I didn't mean to but I was sleeping and I am ridiculous when I'm tired. I'm irrational and stupid and I can't remember anything anyone said afterwards. We'll go next week...or maybe the week after since Riley and I are going to New Hampshire.
It's so nice to be home and see everyone again. It's actually weird the way it turned out. Some of the people I was excited to see...I guess those weren't meant to be lasting friendships. And then I've enjoyed the company of people I disregarded more than I expected. I love the city but nothing compares to the people back home. I should probably work on the friend thing in college though. I know I always say that but really now, why is it so hard for me to make real friends?
I miss David more than I thought I would. We've been having our issues so I thought this break would be good for me. I'm not going to visit him anymore. His dad is leaving for Afghanistan early so somehow I guess that means I can't go up there at any point. I don't know how that makes sense but I kind of get the feeling his parents just don't want me to come anymore. Whatever. I'm not good with the distance thing. Not because I'm needy but it's just weird since I've gotten so used to him being there all the time. I don't even know when I should call him because every time he calls me he basically just asks how I've been and says he called to say hi and he misses me. I feel like we should talk about something with more substance but you can't force those things. I hate when this happens in relationships though because then it just feels like the whole thing is on pause, like while I'm home I'm not even dating anyone at all.
Now I'm going to Boston to see the Dresden Dolls with Kate. Woohoo! I'll be back tomorrow afternoon.
It's so nice to be home and see everyone again. It's actually weird the way it turned out. Some of the people I was excited to see...I guess those weren't meant to be lasting friendships. And then I've enjoyed the company of people I disregarded more than I expected. I love the city but nothing compares to the people back home. I should probably work on the friend thing in college though. I know I always say that but really now, why is it so hard for me to make real friends?
I miss David more than I thought I would. We've been having our issues so I thought this break would be good for me. I'm not going to visit him anymore. His dad is leaving for Afghanistan early so somehow I guess that means I can't go up there at any point. I don't know how that makes sense but I kind of get the feeling his parents just don't want me to come anymore. Whatever. I'm not good with the distance thing. Not because I'm needy but it's just weird since I've gotten so used to him being there all the time. I don't even know when I should call him because every time he calls me he basically just asks how I've been and says he called to say hi and he misses me. I feel like we should talk about something with more substance but you can't force those things. I hate when this happens in relationships though because then it just feels like the whole thing is on pause, like while I'm home I'm not even dating anyone at all.
Now I'm going to Boston to see the Dresden Dolls with Kate. Woohoo! I'll be back tomorrow afternoon.