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So I just watched "Girl Next Door," for the second (or is it third?) time. Yeah, I know, Elisha Cuthbert is gorgeous, and like i tell people, i didnt get both seasons of "24" on DVD for Kiefer Sutherland, ya know? LoL.
It was a decent flick, but, and I know this sounds really cheesy, but theres this speech that the main character gives in the flick that made me think(slightly paraphrased):
Life. What is life all about? I used to think it was about getting what you want. The perfect job, the perfect house, the perfect future. But lately, I've been seeing it differently. I've realized that its about finding that one thing you really care about, that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her, you risk it all. You put her in front of everything, your future, your life, all of it. Maybe sometimes the stuff you do to try to help her isn't always good or right. But ya know what? it doesnt matter. Because in your heart, you know that the juice is worth the squeeze.
It really made me realize. Especially now, that I dont have a job, im pretty broke and im hanging on by a thread. I've been here before, down and depressed, but back then there was something-- someone there that kept me sane, kept me grounded in reality. And at the time I thought I knew what was best, but that was my downfall, listening to myself, and at the same time not listening to myself. If I had, would have realized that she was what was best for me. She was the one special thing that meant more to me than anything else in the world... she still does. I found her, and I tried to fight, but not in the way I should have. I didn't put her in front of everything else, when I really should have. I would risk it all for her if I had that chance again. My future, my life, everything, because the truth is, not one bit of it really does matter. I just want what I had again, to love and be loved. To have that special something that mattered above all else. I realize that now that I have nothing to get in the way of it, but I should've realized it then. My job, my money, my future, my friends, they're all so important in their own ways but i guess john lennon was right when he said "all you need is love." And I never really knew what it was to be in love until I met her. Yeah we had our problems, but what relationship doesnt have difficulties? But at the heart of it all, I love her, because she not only loved me back, but she kept me sane, kept my feet on the ground. She left because I wasn't the man I should've been. If I fight for anything now, it would be to get that feeling back... to get herback Because the risk is worth it, and nothing else matters much anymore.
I dont know whether you still reads this journal, but I want her to know that despite everything we've ever argued about, that Alyssa, you still mean more to me than anything else in this world.
It was a decent flick, but, and I know this sounds really cheesy, but theres this speech that the main character gives in the flick that made me think(slightly paraphrased):
Life. What is life all about? I used to think it was about getting what you want. The perfect job, the perfect house, the perfect future. But lately, I've been seeing it differently. I've realized that its about finding that one thing you really care about, that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her, you risk it all. You put her in front of everything, your future, your life, all of it. Maybe sometimes the stuff you do to try to help her isn't always good or right. But ya know what? it doesnt matter. Because in your heart, you know that the juice is worth the squeeze.
It really made me realize. Especially now, that I dont have a job, im pretty broke and im hanging on by a thread. I've been here before, down and depressed, but back then there was something-- someone there that kept me sane, kept me grounded in reality. And at the time I thought I knew what was best, but that was my downfall, listening to myself, and at the same time not listening to myself. If I had, would have realized that she was what was best for me. She was the one special thing that meant more to me than anything else in the world... she still does. I found her, and I tried to fight, but not in the way I should have. I didn't put her in front of everything else, when I really should have. I would risk it all for her if I had that chance again. My future, my life, everything, because the truth is, not one bit of it really does matter. I just want what I had again, to love and be loved. To have that special something that mattered above all else. I realize that now that I have nothing to get in the way of it, but I should've realized it then. My job, my money, my future, my friends, they're all so important in their own ways but i guess john lennon was right when he said "all you need is love." And I never really knew what it was to be in love until I met her. Yeah we had our problems, but what relationship doesnt have difficulties? But at the heart of it all, I love her, because she not only loved me back, but she kept me sane, kept my feet on the ground. She left because I wasn't the man I should've been. If I fight for anything now, it would be to get that feeling back... to get herback Because the risk is worth it, and nothing else matters much anymore.
I dont know whether you still reads this journal, but I want her to know that despite everything we've ever argued about, that Alyssa, you still mean more to me than anything else in this world.