N>New girl who's sweet, cuddly, and affectionate L/O
Well she's semi-talking to me but still feels cold as ice and each time she cuts things short because of some reason, which makes it apparent she doesn't want to talk to me really. I'm doing better though, I don't constantly hurt when I think about her or the situation like I have this past week. It had gotten to the point i'd be so worked up and stressed I couldn't eat during the day while working at the theater. I'm sure she'd still make a one-night stand out of me if given the opportunity, but i'm still wanting more from her so it does still hurt at times. I'd even be happy to go back to the flirty friendship we've had for a year or so. Anything is better than being alone again.
Well Jason messaged me the other day, most likely because he was drunk but it was still nice to talk. Our friendship has been immensely distant and yet we can talk with each other like we'd seen each other yesterday so I guess that's something to be treasured. He's doing quite well it seems, he's got a solid job and probably looking to go to school in the distant future. Something that is stil hazey for me. We even talked about the possibility of getting an apartment, which is probably the only hope I have at cutting expenses, being able to work less hours, and also being able to afford digital HD cable lol. We were going to get together yesterday but it didn't work our I guess, which tends to be the case often.
I passed inspection with my land lord today I think, although I still have computer junk laying around, he realized i'd made a big effort and made the place look better and that this place is too small for me and i'm going to have stuff laying around. So hopefully no eviction for me. I do plan on beginning to look at apartments regardless. I'm still ready to move on and be done with him.
I also downloaded the cd Mylo - Destroy Rock & Roll. A guy I work with gets EW magazine and leaves them in the booth desk so I was reading and they recommended the cd. It's nothing outstanding but very easy listening if you like techno-ish kind of sound, it's not raver techno as I said kind of just easy listening. Rather Pleasant to listen to while writing this heh. Well I think that's a large enough update.
Well Jason messaged me the other day, most likely because he was drunk but it was still nice to talk. Our friendship has been immensely distant and yet we can talk with each other like we'd seen each other yesterday so I guess that's something to be treasured. He's doing quite well it seems, he's got a solid job and probably looking to go to school in the distant future. Something that is stil hazey for me. We even talked about the possibility of getting an apartment, which is probably the only hope I have at cutting expenses, being able to work less hours, and also being able to afford digital HD cable lol. We were going to get together yesterday but it didn't work our I guess, which tends to be the case often.
I passed inspection with my land lord today I think, although I still have computer junk laying around, he realized i'd made a big effort and made the place look better and that this place is too small for me and i'm going to have stuff laying around. So hopefully no eviction for me. I do plan on beginning to look at apartments regardless. I'm still ready to move on and be done with him.
I also downloaded the cd Mylo - Destroy Rock & Roll. A guy I work with gets EW magazine and leaves them in the booth desk so I was reading and they recommended the cd. It's nothing outstanding but very easy listening if you like techno-ish kind of sound, it's not raver techno as I said kind of just easy listening. Rather Pleasant to listen to while writing this heh. Well I think that's a large enough update.