Whispering in your ear....
Well I did my usual stalking of her in the morning after work. She must think i'm an idiot, although she doesn't know I have her AIM I don't think but she has idle set so I can tell if she's there or comes back or not. She makes of excuses for why she's not there when it's fairly obvious she is >>. So I messaged her and said look I know that you are there and told her if she really doesn't want to talk to me or wants to be rid of me to just say so. About 5-10 minutes later suprise I get a msesage, and she's pissed off at me lol. Apparently she doesn't like it that I know when she's actually online and pretending to be away. She said she needs some "time to herself" which translates to "time away from me" and she asked if the thought ever crossed my mind that maybe she was away because she didn't want to talk to me. I said look, if i've done something to make you not want to talk to me i'm sorry and we should at least talk about it because i'm clueless, I have never treated her badly. She seems cold towards me as well. Not a hint of emotion or affection that she used to have and I asked her why that was, what I had done to make her push me away and she said she didn't know. Then she tried to double back and blame her actions towards me on how i've been acting lately, she said she gets aggravated when I leave messages saying I know she's there and asking why she won't talk to me. Which has nothing to do with it, i'm happy for her that she wants time to herself, everyone needs it sometimes, although i'm convinced that's not the case for her because she has plenty of time to invest in this girl. But what I am concerned with is that when we actually do have time together to talk then she usually busies herself with other things and seems disinterested, which is a huge change from how things were. To which she still couldn't give me any explanation as to why. Yeah I guess i'm bad for taking on stalker-ish characteristics(not that i've let her know). Is it wrong to want answers? So she cuts our conversation short and we part ways and I passed out from my alcoholic buzz. I wake up later and she's actually not away for once, but who else is on but the girl. So I message and ask if we could maybe talk some more because things got kind of cut short, she says no she's going to bed soon and then goes silent. I waited 5-10 minutes and said well I guess we're done talking lol and she replied "yeah" so I said she was probably too busy talking to the girl and she replied that she wasn't and that she was really going to bed...which my intuition tells me was a lie because 20 minutes later she finally puts up an away message. I dunno I don't like acting this way, i'm not a stalker...honest lol. I just don't like not knowing and having no explanations.