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[destroyedingrey]

Ha ha ha, hahahahahahahahah, HA HA HA...

`It's amuzing how it gets under my skin and makes me go COMPLETLY INSANE.

I thought about leaving today, thinking that it was worth it.

I thought about slicing and dicing today, with the silve blade wresting in my palm.

I thought about never comming back today, the absolute joy it would bring to this loveless life.

I thought about giving in and up today, but I rather die than let it break me again.

I thought about breaking today, it felt good in a disturbing way.

I thought about dying today, the silence of this pain was more than I could take.

I thought about leaving her today, because I don't want to look at her face.

I thought about it all, but for some odd reason I didn't leave.

I think about tomorrow, she can't get me tomorrow.

'Cause I'll be there and she wont. She can't break me tomorrow.

But today hasn't ended yet so, I'll still hold the silver blade.

Just in case.

In case it brings too much.

I'll know when my time is.

I'll know because time will be up.

But noone will know.

I'll know with the very sudden burst of pain and relief, as that blade will run deep.