yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
tonight was an interesting night. it was good and i had great conversations. i spent 2 hours talking with my family. my brother was home and so my parents, my brother and i sat talking in the living room for 2 hours. it was real and good because i am so blessed to be so close to my family, but i still felt dumb when i said some things, and they were dumb things to say so i guess that makes sense. but basically i figured some stuff out, sort of but not really (like that makes sense). at one point tonight i told myself i was going to a&m, but then i realized i was being really stupid, and it was a comfort thing because some of my really close friends are going there. i am really scared about college. i know it sounds dumb, but its true. i am not completely sure what i want to do and there are so many decisions and its overwhelming. i know i have said i want to study nursing, and yeah i think that is good, but the idea of having people's lives in your hands (sorta), can i handle that? but honestly who knows what they want to do with their life? my mom and dad are still trying to figure that out. maybe its not about what you do but how you do it. i dunno like i'm not really doing anything now in high school but i am having the greatest time getting to know people and just hanging out and talking. and somehow i feel that is all worthwhile. i'm learning about life and relationships and how to trust God, have greater faith and let go. just to know God has a perfect plan and i can trust Him and not worry. what i really need to do is pray - pray about college, what He wants me to be doing now and just pray about everything, pray for my friends more because i do that some now, and i love to see how He answers those. i guess i pray more for Him to do things than for wisdom and guidance, and i should just praise Him for who He is and how much He has blessed my life. God truly is too great for words and just breath-taking. but yeah, i need to pray about this. i mean the bible does say to not be anxious but to pray about everything at all times. prayer is pretty amazing! and its cool how Jesus prayed for us and our faith before we even existed. sounds like a plan...to pray. ok, well its after 2 am...but i'm not tired. but i've said enough for now. goodnight, actually good morning, and i hope y'all have great weekends!
p.s. i absolutely love talking in my car...thank you for that.
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
tonight was an interesting night. it was good and i had great conversations. i spent 2 hours talking with my family. my brother was home and so my parents, my brother and i sat talking in the living room for 2 hours. it was real and good because i am so blessed to be so close to my family, but i still felt dumb when i said some things, and they were dumb things to say so i guess that makes sense. but basically i figured some stuff out, sort of but not really (like that makes sense). at one point tonight i told myself i was going to a&m, but then i realized i was being really stupid, and it was a comfort thing because some of my really close friends are going there. i am really scared about college. i know it sounds dumb, but its true. i am not completely sure what i want to do and there are so many decisions and its overwhelming. i know i have said i want to study nursing, and yeah i think that is good, but the idea of having people's lives in your hands (sorta), can i handle that? but honestly who knows what they want to do with their life? my mom and dad are still trying to figure that out. maybe its not about what you do but how you do it. i dunno like i'm not really doing anything now in high school but i am having the greatest time getting to know people and just hanging out and talking. and somehow i feel that is all worthwhile. i'm learning about life and relationships and how to trust God, have greater faith and let go. just to know God has a perfect plan and i can trust Him and not worry. what i really need to do is pray - pray about college, what He wants me to be doing now and just pray about everything, pray for my friends more because i do that some now, and i love to see how He answers those. i guess i pray more for Him to do things than for wisdom and guidance, and i should just praise Him for who He is and how much He has blessed my life. God truly is too great for words and just breath-taking. but yeah, i need to pray about this. i mean the bible does say to not be anxious but to pray about everything at all times. prayer is pretty amazing! and its cool how Jesus prayed for us and our faith before we even existed. sounds like a plan...to pray. ok, well its after 2 am...but i'm not tired. but i've said enough for now. goodnight, actually good morning, and i hope y'all have great weekends!
p.s. i absolutely love talking in my car...thank you for that.