7/21/08
So, today is the 21st of July...and here I text on my phone this livejournal entry. I can't do it on my computer because we do no have internet. Or rather I should say I do not have internet.
I don't really know how to express in words what I feel. I think its a mixture of things. I feel...lost. Broken. Angry. Upset. Surprised. Just so many different feelings.
I guess I didn't think the day would actually come that he left. And if he did, we would've been able to fix it by that time. But, obviously we haven't. Elijah is moved out of the apartment and my stuff is in boxes waiting another week or so to move it somewere else yet again.
Elijah's gone out of my life...but I don't want to accept it. I know I should..and I need too, but...my mind is still so wrapped around the idea that we'll fix it.. Even though we aren't going too. ...I think he's done. He couldn't figure me out and got sick of waiting for me to show him.
-sighs- my communication skills need a big make over...
I don't really know how to express in words what I feel. I think its a mixture of things. I feel...lost. Broken. Angry. Upset. Surprised. Just so many different feelings.
I guess I didn't think the day would actually come that he left. And if he did, we would've been able to fix it by that time. But, obviously we haven't. Elijah is moved out of the apartment and my stuff is in boxes waiting another week or so to move it somewere else yet again.
Elijah's gone out of my life...but I don't want to accept it. I know I should..and I need too, but...my mind is still so wrapped around the idea that we'll fix it.. Even though we aren't going too. ...I think he's done. He couldn't figure me out and got sick of waiting for me to show him.
-sighs- my communication skills need a big make over...