(no subject)
I always know when drugs control you.
because you hurt. yourself and me.
every time you raise your voice, lose your words, swear at me, and spit as you shout.
you don't focus on me or my words.
and you need someone to blame.
it's always me.
you know i won't leave and so you blame me.
every time i think it'll hurt a little less.
after all, you've said everything before, surely i'm used to being made to feel unattractive, inadequate.
but each time you find new insults,
and cut me down to new lows
"you made sam feel like the sexiest girl in the world, she told you so"
"Rhiannon understood"
"you bounced things off of sam, you could have deep chats with her, she understood"
"I only did it for attention"
"fuck off, i hate you"
"you only care about you"
"don't touch me"
"no one treated you like i do"
"you only smoke because of what i do to you"
"when you're away from me for 48 hours your head clears"
"its my fault you smoke it"
"it's not about drugs"
because you hurt. yourself and me.
every time you raise your voice, lose your words, swear at me, and spit as you shout.
you don't focus on me or my words.
and you need someone to blame.
it's always me.
you know i won't leave and so you blame me.
every time i think it'll hurt a little less.
after all, you've said everything before, surely i'm used to being made to feel unattractive, inadequate.
but each time you find new insults,
and cut me down to new lows
"you made sam feel like the sexiest girl in the world, she told you so"
"Rhiannon understood"
"you bounced things off of sam, you could have deep chats with her, she understood"
"I only did it for attention"
"fuck off, i hate you"
"you only care about you"
"don't touch me"
"no one treated you like i do"
"you only smoke because of what i do to you"
"when you're away from me for 48 hours your head clears"
"its my fault you smoke it"
"it's not about drugs"