Oh no, how could i be so stupid?
How could i be so stupid??? I just spent the passed 4 hours reading my previous entries only to learn that I'm an idiot. Everything I do out of precaution is so stupid. I never say what I want. Not that I say everything I am thinking but no one does that. I am sorry if I ruined your birthday. I hope you read this, I think. But I can't make you do anything. I want communication, I want us time - which may not happen-- but at least I tried. I don't want my stressing out to keep making me irrational. I want everything to be normal again.. or at least back to the way it was, where I slept at least two nights a week in your arms. I have this feeling that wont happen but at least I said it, and I will have no regrets. I don't know what else to say since its four in the morning.