I know what you mean. But, the changes I made weren't really for the people that I still have ties with. The changes, at least in my opinion, were mainly for me, and my child. No one else.
Yeah, people pointed things out to me. It just took me a while to realize how right some of them were. Iris, as much as I hate it, was right about some things. Even, Liz was right about some things. But, she'll never know how wrong she was about many others.
Once again, that's just my opinion.
I guess it's mostly just to prove to myself that I'm not the person I used to be. I could care less what most others think of me. Like, Iris, Liz, Joey, Em, Melissa, even insignificant people like AJ.....and others. As much as I still love many of those people, each in their own sense, their opinions are not what dictate my decisions.
What does dictate my decisions, however, is the curiousity of what is best for my child. And, as much as I know what's REALLY best for him/her. I know it will never happen again.
As much as I still love her....I know she'll never come back.
But, she doesn't dictate my decisions. No one does, but, me.
There I go again, getting all emotional. I hate that.
But, the changes I made weren't really for the people that I still have ties with.
The changes, at least in my opinion, were mainly for me, and my child.
No one else.
Yeah, people pointed things out to me.
It just took me a while to realize how right some of them were.
Iris, as much as I hate it, was right about some things.
Even, Liz was right about some things.
But, she'll never know how wrong she was about many others.
Once again, that's just my opinion.
I guess it's mostly just to prove to myself that I'm not the person I used to be.
I could care less what most others think of me.
Like, Iris, Liz, Joey, Em, Melissa, even insignificant people like AJ.....and others.
As much as I still love many of those people, each in their own sense, their opinions are not what dictate my decisions.
What does dictate my decisions, however, is the curiousity of what is best for my child.
And, as much as I know what's REALLY best for him/her.
I know it will never happen again.
As much as I still love her....I know she'll never come back.
But, she doesn't dictate my decisions.
No one does, but, me.
There I go again, getting all emotional.
I hate that.
Don't you?
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It's just a lot of things I've thought about as of lately.
I'm just tryin' to get my shit together.
It seems to be working, little by little.
The way it always has.
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