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I made it to church today. Once again, God amazes me. After seeing how bony I looked in some of the vacation pictures, I went and weighed myself. 111. With a full stomach and clothes on. 4 lbs less then before the trip. Anyway, I didn't handle it well. I was already shutting down and shutting everybody out 'cause I was worried about school and coming doctors appointments and everything, and this didn't help anything. I'm NOT doing this alone again. I need to re-phrase that. I was never alone. I'm just going to actively lean on Him and act as someone who knows God is with her and has a plan. At church today, every word and every song seemed chosen by God specifically for me. Most powerful of all was the anthem. It's a very simple piece based on Isaiah 43 called "Do No Fear." Every single time we have sung it (including in choir practices) since I got sick, it has been exactly what I needed to hear at that instant in time. Every single time I've felt God speak directly to me. He never ceases to astound me with His perfect plan.
Do not fear for I am with you
Do not fear I have redeemed you
Do not fear for I have called you by name
And YOU ARE MINE
Do not fear for I am with you
Do not fear I have redeemed you
Do not fear for I have called you by name
And YOU ARE MINE