continued worry of spontaneous combustion or just going insane....

[desireemiote]

Frustrated... pissed of... feeling like I need to move but not wanting to... I'm wide awake! I am at my parents house and the kids opened their presents today

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long time no word

[desireemiote]

i thought you forgot about lj lol... well really i thought you were mad at me for not calling... i've barely talked to anyone on the phone for quite a while. Well aside from my family that is. Sorry I haven't been calling you. My train of thought is so easily derailed and I always worry about calling people at the wrong time or feeling stupid when it has been so long since I called and I just suddenly call out of nowhere with no good reason for not having called before... I will call you soon... I have lots to talk about but I can also just listen if you need me too... human interaction even on the phone is always nice... when it's just family i feel desperate because i call them sooo much but they can also be frustrating to talk to too... they don't seem to be able to just be happy for me... ever!! erg... so yeah I will call you soon and hopefully it will be a good time but if not I'll keep trying. Again sorry for not calling before... i won't make any excuses I should have called and got wrapped up in other things that didn't really matter as much. Hope you can forgive me.