i wonder what i'd do if they all did just what i said
I've lost my ambition. I have no desire to go around asking for work right now. Yes, I'm bored out of my skull, but I'm so over the humiliation of begging for stupid office bitch tasks. I'm so fucking tired right now. And caffeine is a big no no with my migraine headaches, anxiety and current medication(s). I know it's my fault mostly that I didn't get much sleep last night, but it still sucks that I'm stuck in this peculiar state between sleeping and being awake. I feel like there are weights on my eyelids and a cinderblock on my chest, with little gnomes inside imploring me to lay down and succumb to unconsciousness for just a few more hours. Perhaps if the stars align correctly I'll be able to go to sleep relatively early tonight. That would be super nice, I want to fully enjoy my new mattress pad and sheets. So much more comfy than the university issued mattress alone, so reminiscent of a prison's meager means. I cannot wait to get my own apartment. If my scholarship in the Fall didn't exist I would've moved off campus for sure. I know bills and such are quite the added responsibility, but with the money I'm saving I could afford a place that would be cheaper than what I'm paying now on campus and I would have my own space. Sharing a room absolutely sucks, having to tip toe around someone else's habits and preferences. I so badly do NOT want to anger my new roommate that I am too anxious to feel comfortable in my apartment. I feel like one false, slightly inconsiderate move and she'll come running after me with a knife. If only all nights could be like last night where I get home after she's already asleep and then this morning when she leaves for work before I'm even awake. I know that's not going to happen often, but it takes some pressure off. It's just a lot to get used to and try to figure out. The other two suite mates aren't even living with us yet, that's sure to create a lot more drama. If it was just two of us then I could seek refuge in the living room just fine, but with two others to contend with, I don't want to be that girl who hogs the common room to herself all the time. So I desperately seek activities that will extend my time away from the apartment and only come home to eat dinner and sleep.
Speaking of which, today is free cone day at Ben and Jerry's so that's my project to attend to right after work (great dinner right?) before my appointment at Lane. I'm sure I can find something to keep me occupied between the two so I don't have to get back to the apartment until 8 or so. If I had thought to grab my new library book before I left this morning I could've potentially extended my absence until just before SVU comes on at 10, but I guess I'll deal, perhaps make dinner at home and clean up a little bit.
I have a sorry confession to make. I've never learned how to operate a dishwasher and I'm embarrassed to ask someone to show me how to do it. I personally don't like dishwashers and really prefer to hand wash things so I know they are clean completely. But my former roommates left a bunch of stuff in the dishwasher and I know I should figure out how to clean them, because it's not fair for the new roommates to have to do that. I also don't know how to bring up the issue of recycling, because that would help a lot with the garbage accumulation if we could separate bottles and cans and cardboard and paper. I'm willing to take stuff down to the trash room, but despite the different containers next to the garbage can in the kitchen, it doesn't seem that things are being recycled like they used to be. Is it too bitchy or passive aggressive to affix some labels?
I fear this may be the longest half-semester ever.
nikki
Speaking of which, today is free cone day at Ben and Jerry's so that's my project to attend to right after work (great dinner right?) before my appointment at Lane. I'm sure I can find something to keep me occupied between the two so I don't have to get back to the apartment until 8 or so. If I had thought to grab my new library book before I left this morning I could've potentially extended my absence until just before SVU comes on at 10, but I guess I'll deal, perhaps make dinner at home and clean up a little bit.
I have a sorry confession to make. I've never learned how to operate a dishwasher and I'm embarrassed to ask someone to show me how to do it. I personally don't like dishwashers and really prefer to hand wash things so I know they are clean completely. But my former roommates left a bunch of stuff in the dishwasher and I know I should figure out how to clean them, because it's not fair for the new roommates to have to do that. I also don't know how to bring up the issue of recycling, because that would help a lot with the garbage accumulation if we could separate bottles and cans and cardboard and paper. I'm willing to take stuff down to the trash room, but despite the different containers next to the garbage can in the kitchen, it doesn't seem that things are being recycled like they used to be. Is it too bitchy or passive aggressive to affix some labels?
I fear this may be the longest half-semester ever.
nikki