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Today was very nice! I went to my counselor and she said that I didn't need to see her anymore. The only reason I went back to her in the first place is because Dan fucked me up so much I was on the brink of chopping my own head off. And I guess you need more than people saying "Nooo you're a wonderful person!" to really work through problems like that. So, anyway.. I was concerned that I might be clinging to the nearest guy just because I'm on the rebound, but that is not so. My counselor seems to believe that I would have been long over Dan by now anyway, with or without anyone new in the picture. She thinks my relationships with new people are really healthy and shit. Cool. I was kind of wondering about the "over Dan" thing. What does it really mean to be -over- someone? I mean, I was over Dan back in March if it refers to not wanting to be with that person anymore. But I still want to beat the living fecal matter out of him, so I guess I'm not over him in that way. Oh well, it's called a GRUDGE. I hold them, bigtime.
Anyway, she says everything is cool now and she doesn't believe there is any reason whatsoever for me to see her. Uh, yay. I never really disliked counseling.. in fact my counselor, Cassie, was one coolass bitch. She's young and awesome and she knows how to say things in a way that isn't retarded, that I can understand. So I think I'll miss her! Heh, that's kinda dorky.
SOOO. Craig was supposed to meet me at my counseling place at 10, so we waited 'till 10:45 and then we split and went to Mongolian Barbeque, because he knew we were gonna be there and we figured he'd show up. So we saw him on the road, and then he turned somewhere and we were like wtf? But eventually he caught up with us at the restaurant and it was cool. My parents were saying they'd get a seperate table so we can eat by ourselves and not be stupid, but for some reason I said it was cool if we all ate together. Which was stupid INDEED, because my parents talk about retarded things and the whole time I wanted to be alone with Craig. So I dunno what my problem was? Anyway, it was cool, my dad bought me a MONGOLIAN BARBEQUE T-SHIRT. On the back it says, "We do it on a grill." Smell the innuendo. I'm gonna wear it to school because I'm bold like that.
And then we went to the mall and walked around like fags. And I dunno, that was it. I didn't wanna leave Craig. I was like nooooooo just let me stand here and cling to you. Hehe. I'm such a DORK. I swear, when I have a crush on a guy, or love a guy, I'm like a huge dork about it. Oh well, I'm pretty sure they think its cute--I hope so.
I found out it was his grandma's birthday and that's why he canceled with me yesterday. Now I feel all dumb for being so dissappointed. I mean, come on, grandmas are more important! I totally understand, but I was just like, wah wah boo hoo whatever. But now it's cool. I gotta stop being such a selfish bitch. Especially before I find out teh factz.
So, I just ate a shitload of ice cream. I'm gonna get so fat this year, I know it. I got cheese fries at the mall after we ate out at MB, hehe. I just get hungry at like 2 hour intervals and can eat a whole other meal. That adds up to like 6 meals a day, hehe. I'm always ready to eat. I'm getting a fat stomach but it isn't to the stage of grossness yet. It just isn't tight, it's kinda flabby. Gonna have to take care of that though. IMMEDIATE ACTION MUST BE TAKEN TO PREVENT THIS UNACCEPTABLE SKANKYNESS
So, gonna go make some nachos and watch a movie. HEHE.
Anyway, she says everything is cool now and she doesn't believe there is any reason whatsoever for me to see her. Uh, yay. I never really disliked counseling.. in fact my counselor, Cassie, was one coolass bitch. She's young and awesome and she knows how to say things in a way that isn't retarded, that I can understand. So I think I'll miss her! Heh, that's kinda dorky.
SOOO. Craig was supposed to meet me at my counseling place at 10, so we waited 'till 10:45 and then we split and went to Mongolian Barbeque, because he knew we were gonna be there and we figured he'd show up. So we saw him on the road, and then he turned somewhere and we were like wtf? But eventually he caught up with us at the restaurant and it was cool. My parents were saying they'd get a seperate table so we can eat by ourselves and not be stupid, but for some reason I said it was cool if we all ate together. Which was stupid INDEED, because my parents talk about retarded things and the whole time I wanted to be alone with Craig. So I dunno what my problem was? Anyway, it was cool, my dad bought me a MONGOLIAN BARBEQUE T-SHIRT. On the back it says, "We do it on a grill." Smell the innuendo. I'm gonna wear it to school because I'm bold like that.
And then we went to the mall and walked around like fags. And I dunno, that was it. I didn't wanna leave Craig. I was like nooooooo just let me stand here and cling to you. Hehe. I'm such a DORK. I swear, when I have a crush on a guy, or love a guy, I'm like a huge dork about it. Oh well, I'm pretty sure they think its cute--I hope so.
I found out it was his grandma's birthday and that's why he canceled with me yesterday. Now I feel all dumb for being so dissappointed. I mean, come on, grandmas are more important! I totally understand, but I was just like, wah wah boo hoo whatever. But now it's cool. I gotta stop being such a selfish bitch. Especially before I find out teh factz.
So, I just ate a shitload of ice cream. I'm gonna get so fat this year, I know it. I got cheese fries at the mall after we ate out at MB, hehe. I just get hungry at like 2 hour intervals and can eat a whole other meal. That adds up to like 6 meals a day, hehe. I'm always ready to eat. I'm getting a fat stomach but it isn't to the stage of grossness yet. It just isn't tight, it's kinda flabby. Gonna have to take care of that though. IMMEDIATE ACTION MUST BE TAKEN TO PREVENT THIS UNACCEPTABLE SKANKYNESS
So, gonna go make some nachos and watch a movie. HEHE.