Drama, NaNo, Homesickness...
Oh where to begin! First there's the unnecessary drama and the accompanying cold war (does that work if it's one-sided?). Not to mention I'm getting incredibly homesick midsemester - the timing is terrible with a whole slew of exams coming up. Then there's NaNo, or, more appropriately, no NaNo. And then there's just general stress. This is a rant-blog, so proceed with caution...
The drama is silly. The drama is high school. The drama is not something I need in my life right now. The cliff-notes version of it is as follows: a close friend was "sort of seeing" a guy last semester. He has now left. She is needy and has been complaining all semester about a lack of male companionship. This semester she has suddenly been texting the "ex-s" friend all semester, seeing signals and hints where there are none. It got to the point where I got sick and fed up of having to listen to her go on about how he said x, y or z and she took it to mean a, b or c. Then, come last week, all of a sudden the two are hanging out for a movie date. It's just a "friendly" date...nothing romantic. That's fine .. enjoy yourself. But why is that you're suddenly spending the next 4 evenings with him on the other side of town, when you never do so with your other "just friends." The caveat here is that the boy is taken. Well taken - as in girlfriend for 3 with whom he had a live in relation. Said girlfriend also visited him for a week this semester itself. That, and the fact that my friend has said she'll never go after a guy who is already taken (so why do you need to shave your legs and put on makeup???)
Where do I figure in since I don't care? Not sure how I got roped into the current drama. My friend insists on bringing up my concerns and conversation pre-movie date and my washing my hands off the whole affair. She is now 100% sure I'm mad at her. So the past week has been a revisit to the era of cold-shoulders and hurried exits on her part. I finally vented to a mutual friend who was well aware of the situation, fully expecting him to report back to her since he'll do anything to get in bed with her. In a way, it was to make sure she heard what I had to say, since she'd been working so hard on ignoring me. Mostly it was just venting, however. Unfortunately, the vent-session was interrupted and never completed. Additionally, the mutual friend seems to have conveniently forgotten to mention that he was agreeing with me the whole time.
It all culminated with a rather overdramatic text requesting a shirt back - turns out it was an excuse to try to talk to me. I was fine with talking, but there was no listening going on, on her part. Apparently, "I am not mad at anyone. I don't care about this whole situation. It's your life and your decisions; I have too much going on in my own life, so I can't be bothered. I'm just tired, not angry." is not clear enough to understand. 5 minutes of attempted conversation involved her insisting that I was mad, mutual friend sighing like a drama queen, and my getting angry because she didn't seem to understand that I wasn't angry at the whole deal. I ended up walking out of there since no progress was being made.
At the moment, I'm just going to wait for her to understand that the world doesn't revolve around her. My world certainly doesn't. If she can accept that I am fine with hanging out with her as long as she doesn't continue moaning about how she thinks he likes her, etc. This might take time. No worries. I have other friends. I just wish she would be more adult about the situation and realize that I don't have to care about every aspect of her life. Meh!
Nano...has not been happening. I am going to push myself to devote more time towards it. Of course, studies are priority, but any breaks and free moments stolen are hereby dedicated to NaNoing! Kudos to my fellow writers - Bambu, you're an inspiration! Congratulations on a steady pace! Hope the health of your hands aren't compromised along the way.
I got a random call from my dad this afternoon. He'd misplaced some important papers and was feeling stupid. He said he called me to make himself feel better and lighter. We joked about him getting older and forgetful. I ended up crying after we hung up. My dad is not one to call for something silly. He typically waits for the daily evening call where the whole family talks to me. Or he will email me. This phone call made me realize how much he really misses me and loves me. Which made me realize that despite all the fights and anger and issues between the two of us, we are really close to each other. I am equally close to my parents, but I think sometimes I am the only one my dad can turn to. Great...now I'm tearing up again! I miss you Daddy! I can't wait to be home ... see you in 43 days!
My plate is currently overflowing. I have a large heap of schoolwork taking up a majority of the plate. There is a small serving of minor health concerns. A spoonful of friend-ship drama; something I plan on avoiding, but is still taking up space on my plate. There are more spoonfuls of extracurricular activities - I am class representative for AMSA, which comes with its own laundry list of responsibilites, and am helping out with the Farewell Ceremony for our seniors. Then there's NaNo which is almost spilling off the plate, but I am about to scoop it back on. And then there are the household chores. Some of these have spilled over and I'm not too concerned about cleaning up the mess yet. Laundry, ironing and cooking can be taken during second helpings. Right now, the mound of studying needs to be tackled first. *sigh*
Enough work has been accomplished today that I feel comfortable treating myself to watching "Julie & Julia". I have heard good things, so I'm going to go enjoy my own Dinner & a Movie night.