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I might as well round the family out by writing my post now. That gets the pressure of last day posting off of all of us.
Things are going all right, which is something. Rafiq is back in school and handling it better than he did last year, so that's a good thing. Now if I could find the right head space in which to handle it as well. I'm anxious from the time he leaves until the time that he comes home, and I don't know how to stop feeling that way. I hate it, mostly because I know it worries him. That's the last thing I want to do. The entire process should be easier for him, but I'm not being any help at all. I just hope I can change that, and soon.
I have been trying to immerse myself in work, and that helps slightly. After a little longer it might be better, but it's a wait and see thing. I wish I had more patience. I used to be a much more patient person. I guess I've changed in a lot of ways since everything happened. I just don't know if I can change back. I want to, but sometimes it just doesn't seem possible.
And to spare you all more of that rambling all about my anxieties, I think I'll cut it short here. You've all seen it before, so there's no new ground. Next time, maybe I'll be able to go on about other things. Time will tell, I suppose.
Things are going all right, which is something. Rafiq is back in school and handling it better than he did last year, so that's a good thing. Now if I could find the right head space in which to handle it as well. I'm anxious from the time he leaves until the time that he comes home, and I don't know how to stop feeling that way. I hate it, mostly because I know it worries him. That's the last thing I want to do. The entire process should be easier for him, but I'm not being any help at all. I just hope I can change that, and soon.
I have been trying to immerse myself in work, and that helps slightly. After a little longer it might be better, but it's a wait and see thing. I wish I had more patience. I used to be a much more patient person. I guess I've changed in a lot of ways since everything happened. I just don't know if I can change back. I want to, but sometimes it just doesn't seem possible.
And to spare you all more of that rambling all about my anxieties, I think I'll cut it short here. You've all seen it before, so there's no new ground. Next time, maybe I'll be able to go on about other things. Time will tell, I suppose.