How long has it been...
Not that anyone reads this anymore, it's more for me anyway.
I'm babysitting... so you can understand why I'm on here.
it seems that when I am at home I can find hours of distractions on the internet, but now that I want something t occupy my time, i can't find anything to do on here. So here I am. On LJ. Wow.
Do you ever have those moments where you are genuinely happy and can't help but smile because everything feels so good? I had a moment like that today. It was only for a few minutes, but sometimes it can last for a few hours, a day, or on a rare occasion, an entire weekend. I was driving to work (babysitting/nanny) and i had just stopped at McDonalds and purchased an Oreo McFlurry. I was craving a Dairy Queen blizzard, but I had to settle for a McFlurry. There wasn't a Dairy Queen near enough to me. Anyway, so I was driving, eating my Oreo McFlurry and I felt completely happy. Nothing bad was in my mind, no pressing thoughts, irritations or secret desires. I was fulfilled in the moment. And it felt great. I love those moments. As this Live Journal constantly consisted of... moments of beauty and truth. I have forgotten those words, and have failed to see my beauty moments. This is a shame. I used to come on here almost religiously to write about my day, and the beauties that I found in it. Without doing so, I have forgotten to notice, or recognize them.
I'm legal now... and I am craving a drinking session... I have dried baby drool and snot down the front of my dress. My back is hurting and I'm tired of hearing sniveling boys whining about Noah not pitching down and roll, or whatever it's called in their make shift game of hallway kick ball.
I don't work at Outback anymore, and it couldn't have been a bigger blessing for it to have happened when it did. God gave me a job as a nanny, and at universal, and Tammy has been relaying the fact that the restaurant is falling apart, everyone either has quit or is wanting to, more than even I did. God is amazing. I forget that far too often.
Luis is a regular part of my life now... but still not sure if that is a good healthy thing or not. I think it is in my life for the sheer learning experience of it, because it seems like that is all it has been.
I've been growing a lot. Not just in jobs, age and experiences, but mentally and spiritually. I have been fighting with myself and wrestling with God on an almost daily basis. Moreso than I can ever remember doing. Not that I am where i should be still, but I feel like progress is being made, if only because I am feeling this way, and having this internal struggle. It feels good. It's tough, and I haven't fallen to it yet... but it's there. That's something i just know it.
I'm babysitting... so you can understand why I'm on here.
it seems that when I am at home I can find hours of distractions on the internet, but now that I want something t occupy my time, i can't find anything to do on here. So here I am. On LJ. Wow.
Do you ever have those moments where you are genuinely happy and can't help but smile because everything feels so good? I had a moment like that today. It was only for a few minutes, but sometimes it can last for a few hours, a day, or on a rare occasion, an entire weekend. I was driving to work (babysitting/nanny) and i had just stopped at McDonalds and purchased an Oreo McFlurry. I was craving a Dairy Queen blizzard, but I had to settle for a McFlurry. There wasn't a Dairy Queen near enough to me. Anyway, so I was driving, eating my Oreo McFlurry and I felt completely happy. Nothing bad was in my mind, no pressing thoughts, irritations or secret desires. I was fulfilled in the moment. And it felt great. I love those moments. As this Live Journal constantly consisted of... moments of beauty and truth. I have forgotten those words, and have failed to see my beauty moments. This is a shame. I used to come on here almost religiously to write about my day, and the beauties that I found in it. Without doing so, I have forgotten to notice, or recognize them.
I'm legal now... and I am craving a drinking session... I have dried baby drool and snot down the front of my dress. My back is hurting and I'm tired of hearing sniveling boys whining about Noah not pitching down and roll, or whatever it's called in their make shift game of hallway kick ball.
I don't work at Outback anymore, and it couldn't have been a bigger blessing for it to have happened when it did. God gave me a job as a nanny, and at universal, and Tammy has been relaying the fact that the restaurant is falling apart, everyone either has quit or is wanting to, more than even I did. God is amazing. I forget that far too often.
Luis is a regular part of my life now... but still not sure if that is a good healthy thing or not. I think it is in my life for the sheer learning experience of it, because it seems like that is all it has been.
I've been growing a lot. Not just in jobs, age and experiences, but mentally and spiritually. I have been fighting with myself and wrestling with God on an almost daily basis. Moreso than I can ever remember doing. Not that I am where i should be still, but I feel like progress is being made, if only because I am feeling this way, and having this internal struggle. It feels good. It's tough, and I haven't fallen to it yet... but it's there. That's something i just know it.