In my Closet

[deserving_pain]

-IN my closet
It is the hate state of mind
I hate myself
Its dark there.
I want to die
I want to see the blood drip.
It's my escape
This is where I get the real payback
All the outraged thoughts can be soothed
I am alone
The door shuts and no one can help me. NO ONE will see my suffering heart nor my struggles.
I can keep them away
My thoughts and feelings are safe from their comments and rumors.
I am my own kiiller
I see the evil inside myself here.
I try to tell myself lies ... to ignore the truth
It works.
I am trapped in my own escape.
Here. there is no jealousy
I'm restless but I dont want to calm down when I am here
I left my only light at the door.