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Last night I had a wonderful conversatin with someone. It brought a calm presence over me because someone listened and actually understood what I was trying to explain. I understand my life, my thouhgs and the rest of the world now. I can not change them but I will keep myself from turning into them. Life is hard enough if i acted like everyone else, I couldn't possibly imagine the pain. Yet, they are too simple- minded to feel pain I guess.
No one can- feel my inner struggles
- see the way this pain kills me each day
- heal my heart
-ease my mind of pressure
-sincerely care
This is why no one will ever know again how i feel. Once i had this giant wall around my heart. it took forever to block out everyone. then jake knocked it down. I made the best decision and the worst mistake then. I let my heart deeply love and it felt awesome but after so long i didnt think it was mutual. then my heart was tricked into many things after he left. Where was my wall when i needed it? to look at the positive, I've learned so much and grown from this but the sad part is. No one sees this and NO ONE recognizes how I've changed.
I do miss being loved. I cant lie to myself very well about that. Its hard because it relieve me to hear I love you from someone... and to feel the indescribable joy. i once had
No one can- feel my inner struggles
- see the way this pain kills me each day
- heal my heart
-ease my mind of pressure
-sincerely care
This is why no one will ever know again how i feel. Once i had this giant wall around my heart. it took forever to block out everyone. then jake knocked it down. I made the best decision and the worst mistake then. I let my heart deeply love and it felt awesome but after so long i didnt think it was mutual. then my heart was tricked into many things after he left. Where was my wall when i needed it? to look at the positive, I've learned so much and grown from this but the sad part is. No one sees this and NO ONE recognizes how I've changed.
I do miss being loved. I cant lie to myself very well about that. Its hard because it relieve me to hear I love you from someone... and to feel the indescribable joy. i once had