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Just for the record, I'm not leaving for at least four or five months.
Time will fly, but it's still a lot of time to see me, to catch up, to hang out, to cry on my shoulder...
I'm sorry to those that are saddened by my decision, but I just feel like this is what I need to do for myself. Do you think I want to leave you guys behind? Definitely not. Leaving my parents, Alissa, Aileen, Tabi, and Peaches is the hardest thing I'll probably ever experience. I have all ready cried just thinking about it. I cried trying to figure out how I was going to tell everyone. I didn't think about those who didn't know when I posted a blog about it. I'm sorry.
I know I never see most of you now. This saddens me greatly, especially knowing in time, I wont' really get to see you all at all. However, I do know I will come home when I get the chance. I'll probably stay for at least two weeks at a time. I'll try not to miss all of the important events (holidays, derby, birthdays), but I know it will be impossible to make all of them. I might not be in Louisville, but I will only be a really long drive, a plane ride, phone call, text, myspace message, email away. I'll always be here for each and every one of you. I don't know how much you guys need me, but I know you all keep me going. I don't know what I will do without being able to see you guys.
I'm absoulutely terrified. This is the biggest change I have ever experienced. I am fortunate enough to be doing this with Louis, it'll be nice to have someone familiar and so close to me because I will definitely need the comfort and the security of someone from home.
I just feel like this is a step in the right direction. I haven't felt great about my life lately and this is something that is keeping me focused. Something to look forward to. I need this. Please don't be upset with me. I need your support because I need to know that I'll be okay.
Time will fly, but it's still a lot of time to see me, to catch up, to hang out, to cry on my shoulder...
I'm sorry to those that are saddened by my decision, but I just feel like this is what I need to do for myself. Do you think I want to leave you guys behind? Definitely not. Leaving my parents, Alissa, Aileen, Tabi, and Peaches is the hardest thing I'll probably ever experience. I have all ready cried just thinking about it. I cried trying to figure out how I was going to tell everyone. I didn't think about those who didn't know when I posted a blog about it. I'm sorry.
I know I never see most of you now. This saddens me greatly, especially knowing in time, I wont' really get to see you all at all. However, I do know I will come home when I get the chance. I'll probably stay for at least two weeks at a time. I'll try not to miss all of the important events (holidays, derby, birthdays), but I know it will be impossible to make all of them. I might not be in Louisville, but I will only be a really long drive, a plane ride, phone call, text, myspace message, email away. I'll always be here for each and every one of you. I don't know how much you guys need me, but I know you all keep me going. I don't know what I will do without being able to see you guys.
I'm absoulutely terrified. This is the biggest change I have ever experienced. I am fortunate enough to be doing this with Louis, it'll be nice to have someone familiar and so close to me because I will definitely need the comfort and the security of someone from home.
I just feel like this is a step in the right direction. I haven't felt great about my life lately and this is something that is keeping me focused. Something to look forward to. I need this. Please don't be upset with me. I need your support because I need to know that I'll be okay.