The beginning of the end
Alright.
So here's my dilemma...
This is about Jennifer, my best friend.We have know each other and have been best friends with each other for almost two years since we first met each other at our former place of employment.I have been with her through most of the good times, bad times, and downright ugly times in her life.From when she was still fighting multiple health problems stemming from a battle from cancer she had a few years ago to when she was sexually assaulted by some asshole eight months ago, I was there for her each step of the way for her.
To sum this all up in a nutshell:
I'm in love with her.
And I have been in love with her for quite some time now.
I had thought that I would never feel this feeling for love for another woman ever again after having bad experiences in other prior relationships with my ex's.Hell, I even almost asked one of them to marry me back when I was 19 years old.When I met Jen, it all changed.In a sense, she taught me that I could grow to love another person again even after experiencing so much other bullshit in the past.
But, there is a slight problem with this...
Everytime that I want to tell her how I really feel about her, I always flake out or something happens to prevent me from saying anything to her at all.Well that, and she is already in a relationship at the moment with someone else too (which also prevents me from saying anything to her as well).This has been going on now for six months now...
After a lot of thought as well as asking a few family members and friends on what to do, I have basically come to a conclusion.I've got to tell her my true feelings about her.And I am going to tell her before the end of this week.Even though she is currently going out with some at the moment, I gotta tell how I feel about her so I can just get it off of my chest and possibly move on in my love life.
What am I going to say to her? How am I going to tell her about how I truly feel about her without backing out of it? I just want to get this off of my chest once and for all...
I want to tell her my true feelings for her without damaging our friendship that we have with each other and without scaring her off.
I am still on the fence on whether or not to tell her at all...
But I know if I don't, it's gonna continue to tear me apart on the inside bit by bit.
So here's my dilemma...
This is about Jennifer, my best friend.We have know each other and have been best friends with each other for almost two years since we first met each other at our former place of employment.I have been with her through most of the good times, bad times, and downright ugly times in her life.From when she was still fighting multiple health problems stemming from a battle from cancer she had a few years ago to when she was sexually assaulted by some asshole eight months ago, I was there for her each step of the way for her.
To sum this all up in a nutshell:
I'm in love with her.
And I have been in love with her for quite some time now.
I had thought that I would never feel this feeling for love for another woman ever again after having bad experiences in other prior relationships with my ex's.Hell, I even almost asked one of them to marry me back when I was 19 years old.When I met Jen, it all changed.In a sense, she taught me that I could grow to love another person again even after experiencing so much other bullshit in the past.
But, there is a slight problem with this...
Everytime that I want to tell her how I really feel about her, I always flake out or something happens to prevent me from saying anything to her at all.Well that, and she is already in a relationship at the moment with someone else too (which also prevents me from saying anything to her as well).This has been going on now for six months now...
After a lot of thought as well as asking a few family members and friends on what to do, I have basically come to a conclusion.I've got to tell her my true feelings about her.And I am going to tell her before the end of this week.Even though she is currently going out with some at the moment, I gotta tell how I feel about her so I can just get it off of my chest and possibly move on in my love life.
What am I going to say to her? How am I going to tell her about how I truly feel about her without backing out of it? I just want to get this off of my chest once and for all...
I want to tell her my true feelings for her without damaging our friendship that we have with each other and without scaring her off.
I am still on the fence on whether or not to tell her at all...
But I know if I don't, it's gonna continue to tear me apart on the inside bit by bit.