Numb
I want to be numb I don't want to feel any more pain I don't want to argue with myself in my head if I'm truely this bad piece of shit needy bitch I'm told I am every day.... I'm sitting in the bath room cause I'm tired of trying to communicate and he gets in my face head buts me pokes me in head.... I'm driving myself nuts cause part of me knows I'm right and the other is debating if I'm really that big of a damn bitch and problem he says I am .... So tired of this sick viscious cycle I am in I don't want to live alone I cannot live with out a man I don't work I am worthless all I do is cost people money and time and bitch I want to leave so bad cause I'm seriously driving my self mentally insane and my kids need a sane mother.... I don't know what to do anymore I don't know how to leave I'm so lost and ..... I just want to be numb