Light on the fannishness...

[denorios]

It occurs to me that some of you may have followed or friended me on the basis of shared fandom interests, and yet from my entries in the last months (even years) that's somewhat thin on the ground here. I can't remember the last time I wrote an episode reaction post or flailed over something that happened or waxed rhapsodically about a ship or a

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[author_by_night]

It's a vicious cycle. I would love to be a million times more meta, but it's hard when you either find yourself ignored, or just... no one else is meta-ing, so there's no one else to bounce off of. I mean, on my end I also realize I added a lot of people when I was still really into Doctor Who. I'm still into the earlier seasons, but I pretty much gave up on it after... I don't even really remember. There were dinosaurs in Victorian England, and not even Strax, Jenny and Madame Vastra (who I love and want a spinoff of) could save the episode for me. So I know I added all these people because I was a huge Whovian, and... yeah. Not so much anymore, unless again we're talking earlier seasons.

But I mean, even when I was a Whovian, it's not like I was going all meta for it. You're right, there's no real energy. I actually did an LJ post (this was eons ago, I don't think you were on my flist at this point) where I invited my flist to meta, regardless of what their fandom was, and not one person responded. Cool, seriously no hard feelings, but at the same time... that's when I realized how dead LJ fandom was, and began giving up. I can guarantee you that there was a time where if I'd said "meta about anything," my flist would have exploded. Other attempts have had... mixed results. By that same token though, a lot of my meta used to come from things other people were talking about, so when no one's talking, I'm not thinking of anything to really... say about those things.

I feel like when fandom is engaged, it's mostly on the fanfic end of things... and while I have nothing against fanfic, sometimes I just want to love the hell out of my things. :/ But it's not like I'm pushing the meta envelope, so...

[denorios]

I know, sometimes it feels like you're just talking into a void. Even though on one level these are journals, after all - your own space to air whatever you want, record your thoughts and feelings - in another sense, they are entirely about communication - and when you get nothing back, it is disheartening, it does make you wonder why you bother. Particularly when it isn't just airing your own internal dialogue, when you are actively trying to start some communication and debate, and you get nothing back...