all day everyday, school work school work work work school. i feel like all of this is just for my upcoming trip to china in TWO weeks. it is going to be crazy. i dont know what to expect or what to think, that in two weeks ill be in taiwan with cindy and eating delicious foods and experiencing being chinese again. i dont know if all my hard work ( Read more... )

i need to get out of my head, i feel sick. no more smoking, i dont know why i do it. i feel great, then feel like shit. too much on my plate, but if i dont feel like i am killing myself, i dont feel like i am living, i get restless to easily. what would it cost to just run away.

poop smoking

i spend all weekend wishing for something, and get back to reality to have it all come crashing down.

lent: actually go through with this. i am done with games and fucking around.

I feel like I am wasting time. Constantly restless, constantly wanting time to freeze so I can recollect and breathe. Sit down and read a good book, and maybe strum some humalongs ( Read more... )

at what point does an alcoholic call it quits, or a druggie knows where to stop. it cant be on accident that humans, people by nature, with flaws and weaknesses, have nothing or something. filling the void with one thing can only last so long until that melts away or things change, at which point another addiction or habit takes its place. how does ( Read more... )

i feel like my brain is always full of fuck, like jackie chan.

it is below freezing, but i am going on a run/work out to clear my mind, because i cant think straight for anything... i dont know what i am doing, but whatever it is it's not what i want to be doing right now.

yes. kerouac, raphael saadiq, microfinance, beer, poetry, soccer, basketball, honesty.

yes.

away. fall and fade like shooting stars. beautiful while it lasted, kcoolbye.

owl city, fireflies, meteor shower, insomnia, half hearted love, falling short. always... sigh.

So I can't really tell if this is me falling into the old swing of things, showing that I am always the same, always never learning or changing or growing. My body wants to say it is a big distraction, and my heart refuses to take this seriously. I feel like that's my natural reaction, but at the same time I feel like I know better. I haven't gone ( Read more... )

at the same time we're still young ( Read more... )