i wrote this at 9:00 but i am posting it now!
well my world is crashing at the moment and only one person knows why.... i really cant explain anything right now and all i have to say if this is meant for other people to know, then in time they will...but for right now i feel like dying and getting away from this fucked up world.... and the person who knows why, i love you and dont worry about it, cus i'm already so used to this that i could right a book! i just wanna go cry, (which i've already been doing) i hate this.......
take a knife,
cut it deep,
drops of blood before i sleep
and to top off everything that is fucked up right now, i pulled a muscle...in my leg, so i am on the crutchesfor a couple of days! which is only good for one reason, i dont have to play soccer! YAY!
well last night was eventful, i snuck out of my house, which took me like an hour and 1/2 to do because my stupid dad was awake, and my room is right next to his so i could hear him laying in bed, cracking his knuckles, i finally got downstairs and andre met me....we walked around town, trying to figure out where to go and what to do...did u know that us teens have a curfew? omg thats so DUMB! i mean now i feel like a prisoner of Haverhill!...well every time we stopped to figure out what to do, we miraculously happened to stop on a street corner and then all of a sudden a car would go by and then when we'd start moving again, no cars would come...this happened a number of times...
we ended up on 12th ave at the baseball field...there we sat and talked.... and it was at that place that i found out how much i actually hate R.J. Poor....ummm R.J. if you ever read this i want to tell you something so here it is: i fucking despise you and if the idea of ever stepping foot on my property or in my house for a party ever crosses your mind again i will have to throw something at you (hard and fast), this time it will NOT be a shoe! (you guys can IM me and ask me why im so mad at him! i dont feel like announcing it on my l/j)
if i die before i wake
life was just to cruel to take
so now excuse me while i go back to my dark little corner of my basement and cry forever, 'til i am no more
take a knife,
cut it deep,
drops of blood before i sleep
and to top off everything that is fucked up right now, i pulled a muscle...in my leg, so i am on the crutchesfor a couple of days! which is only good for one reason, i dont have to play soccer! YAY!
well last night was eventful, i snuck out of my house, which took me like an hour and 1/2 to do because my stupid dad was awake, and my room is right next to his so i could hear him laying in bed, cracking his knuckles, i finally got downstairs and andre met me....we walked around town, trying to figure out where to go and what to do...did u know that us teens have a curfew? omg thats so DUMB! i mean now i feel like a prisoner of Haverhill!...well every time we stopped to figure out what to do, we miraculously happened to stop on a street corner and then all of a sudden a car would go by and then when we'd start moving again, no cars would come...this happened a number of times...
we ended up on 12th ave at the baseball field...there we sat and talked.... and it was at that place that i found out how much i actually hate R.J. Poor....ummm R.J. if you ever read this i want to tell you something so here it is: i fucking despise you and if the idea of ever stepping foot on my property or in my house for a party ever crosses your mind again i will have to throw something at you (hard and fast), this time it will NOT be a shoe! (you guys can IM me and ask me why im so mad at him! i dont feel like announcing it on my l/j)
if i die before i wake
life was just to cruel to take
so now excuse me while i go back to my dark little corner of my basement and cry forever, 'til i am no more