In the middle of hell.

Who could have thought a pandemic wuold hit.

Am i a parent yet? no. Still childless.. infertile.. or.. actually not infertile.. because all my stuff works.. Im suffering from unexplained childlessness.. hah.. yeah..

I wonder what shit i did in a previous life to land me this one.

hubby is depressed..

im not doing well ( Read more... )

During summer it has been far too warm to even have any kind of sex. Thus vacation was wasted on other things...

Now we are back to trying to get our schedules to mix and find the time and want to try ourselves.

It is seven days past ovulation. Ive been having vague cramps. Until yesterday. Then basically nothing. Today a small brown bleed. Or more ( Read more... )

Summer has been here.. now it's gone. It was hell in so many ways. Just the other night I was watching TV and there was a movie on. No idea what it is called but the movie was about people having babies.. or not being able to have babies.. and every time i zapped by that channel.. it was something about those fucking babies. The mothers living ( Read more... )

Every day i meet things that remind me I cant seem to get pregnant.
Today.. It was the Stargate SG-1 Episode with the Ashen. When Carter and her current partner just hints about them trying to get pregnant. Well, the entire episode really.. since that is how the Ashen work.. they make the people they befriend barren.

The second thing came not long ( Read more... )

Yeah... I was wrong. My period came with a vengeance.
Im in severe pain and bleeding like a stuck pig.
So disappointed. So depressed. So angry. I think it is unfair.
And all i wanna do is eat. But that isnt gonna make me lose the weight i need to lose...
Bleh... What do i do....

So.. i said my period had arrived. it has not.. the bleeding stopped. and now im still having mild pangs of pain.. like i do during period.. right now im feeling nauseous but i think that is a trick of the mind.

Could it really be this time? I have to wait and see. Estimated date for my period is 6 days away.

I am carefully hopeful..

symptoms ( Read more... )