Why Must Everything Be So Difficult?
About 5 days ago I was at Durham Tech, minding my own business as per usual, and I was leaving my Art 131 class and I walk outside and I noticed a black Passport parked right outside. Immediately I was a bit shocked because I knew exactly who that SUV belonged to, a girl that I had known briefly in high school but I really liked her and always had a crush on her. The problem was that I never acted on it and I haven't seen her since 2000. She's 2 years my junior but I really wanted to start talking to her again so I left a note on her car under her windshield wiper. I left my email address on it hoping she would get in touch with me but no such luck. So today, during one of the 5 minute breaks in my Art 131, I walk out into the hall and I see her today. I immediately froze up and just passed by her without saying anything. She stopped to talk to some guy in the hall who I actually also knew years and years ago. So I was walking down the hall and we ended up being pretty much side by side and yet I still said nothing. I just went back to class and pretty much sat there thinking about her and what I'd want to say/do. So I get out of class and I walk around the building a little to see if she was hanging around somewhere. I didn't see her so I decide to leave and go home and as I'm walking to my car I saw her car a few parking spaces down the lot from me. I noticed she was sitting in her car reading something and I seriously considered walking over to her car and talking to her, but ultimately as per usual, I pussied out and didn't do it. I just have a strange feeling about approaching people from my past and talking to them. I'm not sure how they remember me, if they remember me even, and I usually am not the best conversationalist so it can be awkward at times. I really wish I had a good game plan so when I see her on campus on Wednesday, that I'll be able to talk to her. I'm just worried that it will be awkward if she saw the note I left on her car and intentionally didn't reply because she didn't want to talk to me or if she didn't see the note at all and wonders why I left a note on her car considering I saw her today on campus. Anybody with any good ideas should chime in. I'd really appreciate the advice.