Wow that was quick....
I was soooooo mad at Ben that I cut and he burned. It was UGLY!!! So I have NO IDEA what our relationship is right now. I was completley destroyed and when I got off the computer I call Becky and she told me a secret that I LMAO!!! IT MADE MY FUCKING DAY!!!
I wrote a few poems on zenhex to make me feel better. After I got off, I went upstairs and I fixed things and then I just sat in my room in the dark, more depressed than I've ever been in my entire life. Even more than when my godfather abandoned me, and all of the secrets I told you guys. I don"t think u know Jules, tho. Becky knows, HELL YEAH!!! And of course Ben knows.....
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Today I wouldn't stop singing that song and I still am. But now I dunno why. I relate to every word this song says (except my eyes aren't hazel). Even the video, I relate to 100%. Its just sad.
And I told Ben I didn't love him anymore. I never saw him that way EVER. He saw the true dark side to me. Good thing I was able to stop it before it hurt him any further.
Raechon was being an ass when he called me. When I asked if he and Becky got into a fight he said "Of course not....quite the opposite...." and then he said he g2g the phone's dying. Suuuuuuuuuuuuure.
N e ways, back to Ben. I told him I loved him again in a wierd way.....whatever, point is I told him. And u know what the sad part is? I meant it. What am I getting myself into?
I guess I'm stuck being stupid and taking the biggest risks of my life. Will I ever learn?
-Crimson Moon
I wrote a few poems on zenhex to make me feel better. After I got off, I went upstairs and I fixed things and then I just sat in my room in the dark, more depressed than I've ever been in my entire life. Even more than when my godfather abandoned me, and all of the secrets I told you guys. I don"t think u know Jules, tho. Becky knows, HELL YEAH!!! And of course Ben knows.....
Behind These Hazel Eyes
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Today I wouldn't stop singing that song and I still am. But now I dunno why. I relate to every word this song says (except my eyes aren't hazel). Even the video, I relate to 100%. Its just sad.
And I told Ben I didn't love him anymore. I never saw him that way EVER. He saw the true dark side to me. Good thing I was able to stop it before it hurt him any further.
Raechon was being an ass when he called me. When I asked if he and Becky got into a fight he said "Of course not....quite the opposite...." and then he said he g2g the phone's dying. Suuuuuuuuuuuuure.
N e ways, back to Ben. I told him I loved him again in a wierd way.....whatever, point is I told him. And u know what the sad part is? I meant it. What am I getting myself into?
I guess I'm stuck being stupid and taking the biggest risks of my life. Will I ever learn?
-Crimson Moon