Only fools rush in...
It's funny.. I was reading my last post and something just dawned on me.
My boyfriend got me a day spa gift certificate for Christmas!!!
and I was all upset over it (reasons I won't go into) being typical me..
Why is it I always put myself through unnecessary worry and pain and fear for no reason?
Why do I torture myself so? Why am I such a fool???
I suppose I've gotten so used to being disappointed over the years I rather expect it now.
It's like expecting an argument from your best friend, and you begin arguing your point even though they are agreeing with you. *shrug*
I've got to work on that. I've been giving my boyfriend nothing but grief for the holidays.
He's really a great guy, and I don't give him nearly enough credit.
I just look at everything from my limited POV and it's not until I've cried and torn myself up emotionally that I get a clue and realize this man actually loves me.
No matter what kind of stupid girl shit I pull.
He doesn't yell at me, cheat on me, beat me, or anything bad when I'm being a bitch.
Everyone knows what kind of bitch I can be :)
He just gives me time to cool off, fuck up as much as I can, and come to my senses so he can just smile and nod when I apologize.
I'm a spoiled brat :( (even the ppl on yahoo answers thought so too)
Wait, I knew that.
I'm learning tho :) I think I've finally gotten a hold someone who can put me in my place.
I think I've got a lot of changing to do on my part so that I can stop this insanity.
I've never been one to accept love very easily...
My boyfriend got me a day spa gift certificate for Christmas!!!
and I was all upset over it (reasons I won't go into) being typical me..
Why is it I always put myself through unnecessary worry and pain and fear for no reason?
Why do I torture myself so? Why am I such a fool???
I suppose I've gotten so used to being disappointed over the years I rather expect it now.
It's like expecting an argument from your best friend, and you begin arguing your point even though they are agreeing with you. *shrug*
I've got to work on that. I've been giving my boyfriend nothing but grief for the holidays.
He's really a great guy, and I don't give him nearly enough credit.
I just look at everything from my limited POV and it's not until I've cried and torn myself up emotionally that I get a clue and realize this man actually loves me.
No matter what kind of stupid girl shit I pull.
He doesn't yell at me, cheat on me, beat me, or anything bad when I'm being a bitch.
Everyone knows what kind of bitch I can be :)
He just gives me time to cool off, fuck up as much as I can, and come to my senses so he can just smile and nod when I apologize.
I'm a spoiled brat :( (even the ppl on yahoo answers thought so too)
Wait, I knew that.
I'm learning tho :) I think I've finally gotten a hold someone who can put me in my place.
I think I've got a lot of changing to do on my part so that I can stop this insanity.
I've never been one to accept love very easily...