Job Interview Update + Rant
First of all, thank you for all the support. I was confused about some question ('except for your English skill, what else can you offer our company?') but otherwise, I did ok. I don't know what kind of interview is good so I'll just assume that that one went well. Still waiting for the result. They said they'll call for a next round of test/interview or if I'm accepted, but nothing so far. In the meantime, my family are asking around for job opportunities (mostly in Jakarta *sighs*). I'm gonna browse around for jobs as well... though I'm still not sure what type of job I want. What profession doesn't require interacting with people? I'm so awkward around strangers *failing at own major* orz;;
So I mentioned somewhere in facebook that listening to a lot of stories about failed relationships and failing in a relationship myself make me wary of marriages (and long-term relationships). This sparked a private debate between me and my ex about whether or not our relationship failed. I told him that since it didn't work, it failed and that he should just move on. That seemed like the end of the argument until he wrote 'you failed, not me' in his facebook status.
I don't even...
I know that I've made my mistakes, but I've also tried to make it work. I defended him when people said that I deserve better than him, that he took me for granted. I refused when people offer to introduce me to other, better, more mature guys. I made excuses when my friends and family asked about how he's doing and why he never came to see my family and even when he didn't come to my own graduation because he chose to hang out with his friends. I said nothing when he suddenly changed his mind minutes before our date just because he suddenly wasn't in the mood and when he disrespected my family. I tried to change myself because he didn't like some of the things in my life. I listened to his whining about how unfair life was and gave him advices that he wouldn't take. I stayed with him even when I'm moving to the next phase in life and he just sat in his stupid corner of woe to whine about why he couldn't do things he's supposed to do (finishing college, getting a job, being a man). I stuck by him when there seemed to be no future for us.
Did he expect me to keep doing that for the rest of my life? What am I supposed to do? Wait hopefully for him to grow up already? To put a stop to my life because he wouldn't move forward and I should always drag him behind me? I mean... WTF! My patience is limited. I want a partner who is an equal to me, not a child! Call me whatever but I refuse to do it any longer. And after reading that status, I'm more and more convinced that breaking up with him is the best thing I've ever done in that relationship.
So I mentioned somewhere in facebook that listening to a lot of stories about failed relationships and failing in a relationship myself make me wary of marriages (and long-term relationships). This sparked a private debate between me and my ex about whether or not our relationship failed. I told him that since it didn't work, it failed and that he should just move on. That seemed like the end of the argument until he wrote 'you failed, not me' in his facebook status.
I don't even...
I know that I've made my mistakes, but I've also tried to make it work. I defended him when people said that I deserve better than him, that he took me for granted. I refused when people offer to introduce me to other, better, more mature guys. I made excuses when my friends and family asked about how he's doing and why he never came to see my family and even when he didn't come to my own graduation because he chose to hang out with his friends. I said nothing when he suddenly changed his mind minutes before our date just because he suddenly wasn't in the mood and when he disrespected my family. I tried to change myself because he didn't like some of the things in my life. I listened to his whining about how unfair life was and gave him advices that he wouldn't take. I stayed with him even when I'm moving to the next phase in life and he just sat in his stupid corner of woe to whine about why he couldn't do things he's supposed to do (finishing college, getting a job, being a man). I stuck by him when there seemed to be no future for us.
Did he expect me to keep doing that for the rest of my life? What am I supposed to do? Wait hopefully for him to grow up already? To put a stop to my life because he wouldn't move forward and I should always drag him behind me? I mean... WTF! My patience is limited. I want a partner who is an equal to me, not a child! Call me whatever but I refuse to do it any longer. And after reading that status, I'm more and more convinced that breaking up with him is the best thing I've ever done in that relationship.