the blue moon!
i think ive figured out why love going to the gym
the beatiful release of endorphins hyelps me keep going
i feel so much more crisper i thrive so much more
its a new self mutialtion(sp)
i havent had a real update in i dont know how long..
so i havent talked to my dad in 4.. months?
yup
happy 4 month aniversy(sp) with you and your fuck up.
its weird, i am still comprehending how small the gay teenage community in el paso is, its so close kit, basicly we all know each other, kinda scary.
recently i have been sort of depressed im not sure why, i just feel like spilling blood, and it takes all i have to not.
my brother came home, its not as bad as i thought it would be.
yesterday he said something to me tht just made me smile.
"i like you but youre crazy"
so for the record we dont hate each other
theres just a mutal understand that we have nothing to talk about basicly
something my mother would never understand.
im so bored...
ive been doing terrible in school lately, im not sure why
i can do the work, but i dont.
i need to like stop using the word love so frequently,
of coure ive said that before and have yet to follow through.
i mean it has basically lost all meaning.
there's only a certain few who i should even say that to:
family, and kati n cathy and such.
so many things are easier said then done
like the little rules that people create in looking for a(n) significant other (not the numbers..) but in teh end, love doesnt abide by these rules.
i just cant imagine how people can be so digustingly upset and turnedoff by stuff that has no effect on their lives what so ever. then they think they have a right to say how closed minded another person is. you know who you are.
people are such hypocrites(sp)
so thats about it..
the beatiful release of endorphins hyelps me keep going
i feel so much more crisper i thrive so much more
its a new self mutialtion(sp)
i havent had a real update in i dont know how long..
so i havent talked to my dad in 4.. months?
yup
happy 4 month aniversy(sp) with you and your fuck up.
its weird, i am still comprehending how small the gay teenage community in el paso is, its so close kit, basicly we all know each other, kinda scary.
recently i have been sort of depressed im not sure why, i just feel like spilling blood, and it takes all i have to not.
my brother came home, its not as bad as i thought it would be.
yesterday he said something to me tht just made me smile.
"i like you but youre crazy"
so for the record we dont hate each other
theres just a mutal understand that we have nothing to talk about basicly
something my mother would never understand.
im so bored...
ive been doing terrible in school lately, im not sure why
i can do the work, but i dont.
i need to like stop using the word love so frequently,
of coure ive said that before and have yet to follow through.
i mean it has basically lost all meaning.
there's only a certain few who i should even say that to:
family, and kati n cathy and such.
so many things are easier said then done
like the little rules that people create in looking for a(n) significant other (not the numbers..) but in teh end, love doesnt abide by these rules.
i just cant imagine how people can be so digustingly upset and turnedoff by stuff that has no effect on their lives what so ever. then they think they have a right to say how closed minded another person is. you know who you are.
people are such hypocrites(sp)
so thats about it..