oh no, guys...school is ending..what will happen to the gang?
school is ending...again. this is very sad..i m not uber sad right now because im still stayingin New brunswick for a little bit to chill with ben and various other friends along the way.
i am usually very nervous about things ending...im normally very sad and upset..and wonder if i'll stay friend with people..but withthe people i've met this year..i think we'll stay friends and see each other more.
and with ben.. i love you so much, ben. for me summer has always been the "cliff" of life...kinda thing...where as...when you reach summer...no one has a choice except to walk off the cliff...no one ever really meets at the bottom...but with ben it doesn't feel like a cliff...i don't feel (and don't want to feel) that he and i are going to walk off the cliff...
realisticlly i know things happen and time moves on and blah blah blah...but i like feeling this way..i have my feet on the ground. i do. which is all the more reason for me to feel this way. because ben has helped me see a truth about summer.
it's not forever, it's not a cliff, and its not death of things. he and i will still see each other..it'll be like a longer christmas break..and he and i have plans to see each other over the summer..yea i will get jealous and so will he...many people will come and go...but i love him enough to stay confident about myself and us...
confidence is really important...confidence in yourself, who you are, what you like, what you want to accomplish...it's very important...i would rather keep my confidence than go crazy with worry... ben and i feel pretty good together. i'll stay confident in that feeling.
i was thinking maybe custdian work..something like that over the summer that i can walk to.
what are all my friends planning on doing this summer...?
later kittens...i hope all of you are confident in what you what and how you feel.
i am usually very nervous about things ending...im normally very sad and upset..and wonder if i'll stay friend with people..but withthe people i've met this year..i think we'll stay friends and see each other more.
and with ben.. i love you so much, ben. for me summer has always been the "cliff" of life...kinda thing...where as...when you reach summer...no one has a choice except to walk off the cliff...no one ever really meets at the bottom...but with ben it doesn't feel like a cliff...i don't feel (and don't want to feel) that he and i are going to walk off the cliff...
realisticlly i know things happen and time moves on and blah blah blah...but i like feeling this way..i have my feet on the ground. i do. which is all the more reason for me to feel this way. because ben has helped me see a truth about summer.
it's not forever, it's not a cliff, and its not death of things. he and i will still see each other..it'll be like a longer christmas break..and he and i have plans to see each other over the summer..yea i will get jealous and so will he...many people will come and go...but i love him enough to stay confident about myself and us...
confidence is really important...confidence in yourself, who you are, what you like, what you want to accomplish...it's very important...i would rather keep my confidence than go crazy with worry... ben and i feel pretty good together. i'll stay confident in that feeling.
i was thinking maybe custdian work..something like that over the summer that i can walk to.
what are all my friends planning on doing this summer...?
later kittens...i hope all of you are confident in what you what and how you feel.