Salvage My Heart Chapter 10
Title: Salvage My Heart- Chapter 10
Pairing: Sonny/Alex
Rating: M for language and future references to serious issues (Yep)
Summary: After her parents are finally pushed over the limit, Alex Russo is sent to boarding school for something she didn't do. It's there she meets Sonny Munroe, a girl who's distant nature catches Alex's intense curiosity. Will Sonny reveal her secrets? Will Alex reveal her own? blahblahblahblahblah? yea I suck at summaries but you get the gist.
A/N: OMG IT'S AN UPDATE! I'm really sorry about how long it's been. I've been trying to get some writing down but I never seemed to get the time until recently. You all have been so great though. Even after an update from so long ago, I still get comments. Thank you so so so much.This is still in Alex's perspective. Thoughts and memories/flashbacks are in Italic while actual dialogue is in bold italic.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Alex Russo or Sonny Munroe because they belong to Disney. Human beings are not property.
The lips merely centimeters away from those of the girl in front of her, she stared into dark orbs, her gaze unfaltering. The door behind her clicked shut. She stayed silent as she was tugged away from the door, and almost impossibly closer to the warm toned body in front of her.
“We have a lot of stuff to talk about, don‘t we?” she rasped out, eyes nearly fully closed as she squinted at Alex thoughtfully.
Swallowing harshly, she grasped desperately inside herself for her lifeboat, her hands clawing half heartedly for a way out of this situation. Not knowing what else to do, Alex narrowed her eyes as she stood up straighter, one hand finding itself on her hip, as she let out an amused scoff. Her fingers finding her hair, she swiped at it thoughtfully as she continued to chuckle, her arm escaping the firm yet gentle grasp that it was in only moments before.
“Yeaaah, I’m pretty sure we covered everything, Sonny.” Grabbing the pickle jar almost absentmindedly, Alex quickly gave herself a second before spinning around quickly, a small smirk in place. “I mean we went over the fact that I’m gay…nothing much to say after that…” Alex trailed off before looking away for an instant. Half shrugging, Alex turned around as she “focused” on her pickle jar.
“Are you sure we have nothing to talk about?”
Rolling her eyes, Alex let out a sigh, half from discomfort and nervousness, half from irritation at the other girl’s aloof insistence. “Yes, I’m sure-” She couldn’t stop the small gasp from escaping, her eyes widening as she stumbled backwards. Hands grasped her shoulders before pulling on them gently. Another gasp escaped into the air as she once again felt the heat radiating from Sonny’s body once again, her skin becoming flush at the feel of calm breaths smoothing over to her lips.
“I mean,” Sonny started, her voice becoming softer as she spoke, “are you REALLY sure? Cuz right here….right now….in this moment….it seems like there‘s plenty.” Staring deep into wide eyes, Sonny gazed intensely, her eyes focused on their target. Her hands grasping slightly tighter, her voice whispered against burning skin, “Is there nothing else we have to talk about?”
“No.” She winced as her voice wavered.
“Not even the fact that your skin feels like it’s on fire?”
“No…”
“Not even the fact that your voice is wavering?”, she breathed out.
“No…”
“Not even the fact that you get like this….that you always get like this… whenever…”
Oh my god….
“You’re…”
She knows. She knows everything….
“Around…”
What the hell am I gonna do?
“Courtney?”
“YES! I ADMIT IT OKAY! BUT WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? HOW CAN ANYONE NOT CONTROL THEMSELVES-wait…what?!” Her face full of shock and slight disgust, Alex stared at Sonny. “Courtney? Made-my-face-out-of-an-old-credit-card Courtney?
Stepping away from Alex, Sonny turned around as she made her way to her bed. “Yup.”
She remained silent, staring at the aloof girl as she untied the laces of her boots before finally speaking. “I think I’m going to be sick. Excuse me while I barf out the window. “
Looking up from her task, Sonny gazed at Alex, her face blank as met the horrified and disgusted expression on Alex’s face. “What?”
“Courtney?! Really? God, what kind of taste do you think I have? A shitty one? I doubt even people who make durable plastic would want her. I feel like rinsing out my mouth!” Alex ranted, her arms flailing, “God, even the thought tastes disgusting!”
With the laces of her boots untied, Sonny rose from her bed, slowly making her way over to an unaware Alex Russo. “So, it’s not Courtney.”
“Ugh, not if she were the last mannequin on earth!” Alex practically shouted, her movements unfocused and emotional.
Holy shit, really?! I thought she was smart! That plastic Tupperware-
“Are you sure?”
Eyes clenched closed, Alex whirled around, her voice raised and emotional. “DUDE, SERIOUSLY?! NO, IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING GIRL. IT’S-”
Fingers suddenly wrapped around her wrists, Alex gasped as her eyes shot open, words dying before escaping her lips.
“Me,” Sonny stated, her voice calm and sure. Stepping closer, Sonny’s eyes darted over Alex’s entire face before she firmly repeated what she said. “Me.” Her hands held Alex’s, her face edging closer and closer to the now barely breathing latina in front of her. “Me.”
Taking in a shuddering breath, Alex closed her eyes as she looked down, her hands slipping away from Sonny’s. Taking a step back, Alex looked up, her eyes withdrawn and hands now clenched. You probably don’t want me as a roommate anymore-”
“And why would think that?” a cool voice replied, eyes drilling holes into the retreating girl. Scoffing, Alex shook her head before looking back at Sonny. Her voice strong, Alex started once again.
“I’m bi-”
“Well then, you aren’t gay. You’re bi. I was right-”
I DON’T…” her voice wavered off as she quickly took deep breaths in an effort to calm herself. Her jaw clenched, she started at Sonny before harshly staring again. “I don’t get you. At all.”
Tilting her head to the side, Sonny regarded her with a blank face. “Okay…”
“You find out I’m bi-”
“The whole school knew alre-”
“You basically irritate me by saying it’s Courtney that I like-”
“Well, at least you know I wasn’t being serious with that thought-”
“You just go on and on with this blank look-”
“I doubt you want me to sing a song about it-”
“YOU ACT LIKE NOTHING’S CHANGED! LIKE I DIDN’T JUST ADMIT THAT I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU! LIKE….LIKE I’M NOT STANDING HERE. RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. KNOWING THAT YOU NOW KNOW EVERYTHING! IT DOESN’T EVEN PHASE YOU! YOU DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT AT ALL! YOU JUST WANTED TO SEE ME ACT LIKE AN IDIOT LIKE I ALWAYS DO AROUND YOU! IT DOESN’T EVEN AFFECT-”
She stumbled back, the long forgotten pickle jar crashing to the ground, shards mixing with pickle juice racing away from the source of the fall. Her mind barely registered the pain as the back of her hand collided with the table, the lamp threatening to topple over before it reached equilibrium once again. She barely registers the sound of distant chimes ringing from the Recreational Building, sounds normally result in her grumbling about the unfairness of it all.
She could only register lips.
They were warm against her own, smooth and soft just like her dreams told her. Pressed against her own almost harshly, she felt everything fade away as she slowly began to realiz what was happening.
She couldn’t hold back the moan as she was tugged closer. Hands that were formally flat against the table behind her now clutching at waist and now wrinkled uniform shirt. She could feel herself falling. She stumbled back once again, her balance lost the minute soft lips found her own. Her hands grasped at the silky smooth skin found in her desperation to find some form of balance in her shock filled haze. Suddenly she could feel the warmth pulling away. A sudden need filled within her, finally spurring Alex into action as stayed connected, her lips now moving with the other girl’s.
Tugging on the girl’s collar, Alex tugged Sonny closer, her lips now firmly moving with Sonny’s. They meshed together, moving slowly in an almost dreamlike fashion. Suddenly, Alex pushed her away as she stumbled back, her back once again colliding with the table behind her. Steadying herself, Alex looked straight at Sonny.
“What…what was that…?”
“….do I really have to answer that question? Isn’t it obvious?”
“I MEAN-” Alex raised her voice slightly before sighing. Looking up, she bit her lip, her mind subconsciously registering the other girl’s strawberry flavored lip gloss. “Why…why did you do that?”
Staring at the jittery girl before her, Sonny silently moved closer to her, her eyes never leaving the nervous ones. “If you don’t know the answer to that,” Sonny whispered, her fingers gently brushing back a lock of hair, “then you’re gonna have to ask for more than a dictionary for Christmas.”
Swallowing harshly, Alex pushed past the girl before making her way to her bed. “Forget I even asked!” she whispered angrily, her frustration finally reaching an all time high. “Of course you would crack a joke with your dry ice humor.”
“I think…it’s just dry humor-”
“Oh whatever! Just forg-” Whirling her around, Sonny stared intensely at the frustrated girl.
“Seriously? You’re angry now? You honestly don’t know what I was doing? Fine. I was kissing you.” Not even pausing for Alex to stutter out nervously, Sonny pulled her closer. “I. Kissed. You. My lips met yours. You didn’t kiss me. I kissed you. I kissed you while you were ranting about how none of this shit right here affected me and about how I didn’t give a damn. I kissed you when you were turning as red as a fucking tomato because you stopped breathing while ranting like you do every time we talk. I kissed you.” Pulling her flush against her own body, Sonny stared intensely at her. “I kissed you. Because for some fucking reason that I don’t know yet….I can’t help but want to. Even when you push my fucking buttons, even when you zone out more than you actually speak, I can’t help but fucking want to. Is that a good enough reason for you?” she asked, her voice raspy as she regarded Alex with narrowed eyes. Staring at her silently, Alex could only nod.
“Alright then. Now that we’ve got that cov-”
And then they were back in dreamland.
Pairing: Sonny/Alex
Rating: M for language and future references to serious issues (Yep)
Summary: After her parents are finally pushed over the limit, Alex Russo is sent to boarding school for something she didn't do. It's there she meets Sonny Munroe, a girl who's distant nature catches Alex's intense curiosity. Will Sonny reveal her secrets? Will Alex reveal her own? blahblahblahblahblah? yea I suck at summaries but you get the gist.
A/N: OMG IT'S AN UPDATE! I'm really sorry about how long it's been. I've been trying to get some writing down but I never seemed to get the time until recently. You all have been so great though. Even after an update from so long ago, I still get comments. Thank you so so so much.This is still in Alex's perspective. Thoughts and memories/flashbacks are in Italic while actual dialogue is in bold italic.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Alex Russo or Sonny Munroe because they belong to Disney. Human beings are not property.
The lips merely centimeters away from those of the girl in front of her, she stared into dark orbs, her gaze unfaltering. The door behind her clicked shut. She stayed silent as she was tugged away from the door, and almost impossibly closer to the warm toned body in front of her.
“We have a lot of stuff to talk about, don‘t we?” she rasped out, eyes nearly fully closed as she squinted at Alex thoughtfully.
Swallowing harshly, she grasped desperately inside herself for her lifeboat, her hands clawing half heartedly for a way out of this situation. Not knowing what else to do, Alex narrowed her eyes as she stood up straighter, one hand finding itself on her hip, as she let out an amused scoff. Her fingers finding her hair, she swiped at it thoughtfully as she continued to chuckle, her arm escaping the firm yet gentle grasp that it was in only moments before.
“Yeaaah, I’m pretty sure we covered everything, Sonny.” Grabbing the pickle jar almost absentmindedly, Alex quickly gave herself a second before spinning around quickly, a small smirk in place. “I mean we went over the fact that I’m gay…nothing much to say after that…” Alex trailed off before looking away for an instant. Half shrugging, Alex turned around as she “focused” on her pickle jar.
“Are you sure we have nothing to talk about?”
Rolling her eyes, Alex let out a sigh, half from discomfort and nervousness, half from irritation at the other girl’s aloof insistence. “Yes, I’m sure-” She couldn’t stop the small gasp from escaping, her eyes widening as she stumbled backwards. Hands grasped her shoulders before pulling on them gently. Another gasp escaped into the air as she once again felt the heat radiating from Sonny’s body once again, her skin becoming flush at the feel of calm breaths smoothing over to her lips.
“I mean,” Sonny started, her voice becoming softer as she spoke, “are you REALLY sure? Cuz right here….right now….in this moment….it seems like there‘s plenty.” Staring deep into wide eyes, Sonny gazed intensely, her eyes focused on their target. Her hands grasping slightly tighter, her voice whispered against burning skin, “Is there nothing else we have to talk about?”
“No.” She winced as her voice wavered.
“Not even the fact that your skin feels like it’s on fire?”
“No…”
“Not even the fact that your voice is wavering?”, she breathed out.
“No…”
“Not even the fact that you get like this….that you always get like this… whenever…”
Oh my god….
“You’re…”
She knows. She knows everything….
“Around…”
What the hell am I gonna do?
“Courtney?”
“YES! I ADMIT IT OKAY! BUT WHAT DO YOU EXPECT? HOW CAN ANYONE NOT CONTROL THEMSELVES-wait…what?!” Her face full of shock and slight disgust, Alex stared at Sonny. “Courtney? Made-my-face-out-of-an-old-credit-card Courtney?
Stepping away from Alex, Sonny turned around as she made her way to her bed. “Yup.”
She remained silent, staring at the aloof girl as she untied the laces of her boots before finally speaking. “I think I’m going to be sick. Excuse me while I barf out the window. “
Looking up from her task, Sonny gazed at Alex, her face blank as met the horrified and disgusted expression on Alex’s face. “What?”
“Courtney?! Really? God, what kind of taste do you think I have? A shitty one? I doubt even people who make durable plastic would want her. I feel like rinsing out my mouth!” Alex ranted, her arms flailing, “God, even the thought tastes disgusting!”
With the laces of her boots untied, Sonny rose from her bed, slowly making her way over to an unaware Alex Russo. “So, it’s not Courtney.”
“Ugh, not if she were the last mannequin on earth!” Alex practically shouted, her movements unfocused and emotional.
Holy shit, really?! I thought she was smart! That plastic Tupperware-
“Are you sure?”
Eyes clenched closed, Alex whirled around, her voice raised and emotional. “DUDE, SERIOUSLY?! NO, IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING GIRL. IT’S-”
Fingers suddenly wrapped around her wrists, Alex gasped as her eyes shot open, words dying before escaping her lips.
“Me,” Sonny stated, her voice calm and sure. Stepping closer, Sonny’s eyes darted over Alex’s entire face before she firmly repeated what she said. “Me.” Her hands held Alex’s, her face edging closer and closer to the now barely breathing latina in front of her. “Me.”
Taking in a shuddering breath, Alex closed her eyes as she looked down, her hands slipping away from Sonny’s. Taking a step back, Alex looked up, her eyes withdrawn and hands now clenched. You probably don’t want me as a roommate anymore-”
“And why would think that?” a cool voice replied, eyes drilling holes into the retreating girl. Scoffing, Alex shook her head before looking back at Sonny. Her voice strong, Alex started once again.
“I’m bi-”
“Well then, you aren’t gay. You’re bi. I was right-”
I DON’T…” her voice wavered off as she quickly took deep breaths in an effort to calm herself. Her jaw clenched, she started at Sonny before harshly staring again. “I don’t get you. At all.”
Tilting her head to the side, Sonny regarded her with a blank face. “Okay…”
“You find out I’m bi-”
“The whole school knew alre-”
“You basically irritate me by saying it’s Courtney that I like-”
“Well, at least you know I wasn’t being serious with that thought-”
“You just go on and on with this blank look-”
“I doubt you want me to sing a song about it-”
“YOU ACT LIKE NOTHING’S CHANGED! LIKE I DIDN’T JUST ADMIT THAT I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU! LIKE….LIKE I’M NOT STANDING HERE. RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. KNOWING THAT YOU NOW KNOW EVERYTHING! IT DOESN’T EVEN PHASE YOU! YOU DON’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT AT ALL! YOU JUST WANTED TO SEE ME ACT LIKE AN IDIOT LIKE I ALWAYS DO AROUND YOU! IT DOESN’T EVEN AFFECT-”
She stumbled back, the long forgotten pickle jar crashing to the ground, shards mixing with pickle juice racing away from the source of the fall. Her mind barely registered the pain as the back of her hand collided with the table, the lamp threatening to topple over before it reached equilibrium once again. She barely registers the sound of distant chimes ringing from the Recreational Building, sounds normally result in her grumbling about the unfairness of it all.
She could only register lips.
They were warm against her own, smooth and soft just like her dreams told her. Pressed against her own almost harshly, she felt everything fade away as she slowly began to realiz what was happening.
She couldn’t hold back the moan as she was tugged closer. Hands that were formally flat against the table behind her now clutching at waist and now wrinkled uniform shirt. She could feel herself falling. She stumbled back once again, her balance lost the minute soft lips found her own. Her hands grasped at the silky smooth skin found in her desperation to find some form of balance in her shock filled haze. Suddenly she could feel the warmth pulling away. A sudden need filled within her, finally spurring Alex into action as stayed connected, her lips now moving with the other girl’s.
Tugging on the girl’s collar, Alex tugged Sonny closer, her lips now firmly moving with Sonny’s. They meshed together, moving slowly in an almost dreamlike fashion. Suddenly, Alex pushed her away as she stumbled back, her back once again colliding with the table behind her. Steadying herself, Alex looked straight at Sonny.
“What…what was that…?”
“….do I really have to answer that question? Isn’t it obvious?”
“I MEAN-” Alex raised her voice slightly before sighing. Looking up, she bit her lip, her mind subconsciously registering the other girl’s strawberry flavored lip gloss. “Why…why did you do that?”
Staring at the jittery girl before her, Sonny silently moved closer to her, her eyes never leaving the nervous ones. “If you don’t know the answer to that,” Sonny whispered, her fingers gently brushing back a lock of hair, “then you’re gonna have to ask for more than a dictionary for Christmas.”
Swallowing harshly, Alex pushed past the girl before making her way to her bed. “Forget I even asked!” she whispered angrily, her frustration finally reaching an all time high. “Of course you would crack a joke with your dry ice humor.”
“I think…it’s just dry humor-”
“Oh whatever! Just forg-” Whirling her around, Sonny stared intensely at the frustrated girl.
“Seriously? You’re angry now? You honestly don’t know what I was doing? Fine. I was kissing you.” Not even pausing for Alex to stutter out nervously, Sonny pulled her closer. “I. Kissed. You. My lips met yours. You didn’t kiss me. I kissed you. I kissed you while you were ranting about how none of this shit right here affected me and about how I didn’t give a damn. I kissed you when you were turning as red as a fucking tomato because you stopped breathing while ranting like you do every time we talk. I kissed you.” Pulling her flush against her own body, Sonny stared intensely at her. “I kissed you. Because for some fucking reason that I don’t know yet….I can’t help but want to. Even when you push my fucking buttons, even when you zone out more than you actually speak, I can’t help but fucking want to. Is that a good enough reason for you?” she asked, her voice raspy as she regarded Alex with narrowed eyes. Staring at her silently, Alex could only nod.
“Alright then. Now that we’ve got that cov-”
And then they were back in dreamland.