afterlife

[demelzack]

I feel like I'm living in a dream. I think I have the power to prevent this bubble from ever bursting. I mean, eventually I'll die but that's a different kind of burst. Part of what makes time valuable is the fact that it's limited

Comments

[alfonzobean]

You've committed the common logical fallacy of suggesting that any two times in your life are comparable and thus that one must be 'better' than another. If you take the time to enjoy what's going on right now you won't have the time or the interest to try to figure out what's best. Life's too short to worry about decisions made.

I completely ignore this advice much of the time, but it's true.

[demelzack]

How can I enjoy the present if I forsake the past?

[alfonzobean]

I didn't say to forsake the past, just not to expend effort and sanity being concerned about it. You should definitely enjoy the things that went well and not repeat the things that didn't, assuming there's a good chance that the things that went poorly will do so again.

[demelzack]

I don't think of effort and sanity as commodities, once spent, gone. I think of them more like practices or exercises akin to lung capacity.

I feel I should put effort and sanity into everything I do, including being concerned about things. And sometimes they even balance one another out.

I don't want to simply focus on the good. Focusing on both helps me appreciate the good. Focusing on the bad can also help me learn from what went wrong. I feel like it's a balance thing.

And in balance there's order and in order there's worst, bad, zero, good, and better.

Aside from all the focusing talk, I really feel I'm incredibly lucky and for some reason I seem to remember more good than bad, especially when I focus on my recent past. :)

In being concerned about whether or not this is as good as it will ever get, it isn't a slight against the way things currently are - it's more a hope that I can move on from what I have and not lose the wonderful instances I seem to orchestrate or experience in the now.

[demelzack]

Pow! Straight to the moon!

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[gmendel]

Eh? So this moving back to Oregon is a done deal, or just under consideration?

Re: ?

[demelzack]

This is almost a done deal. My contract here is over in June. I've been offered a qualified indefinite renewal but I really want to go home to my friends and go back to school.