Overload
Last couple few days have had a lot of really good points. But with the good comes tragedy...or so the story of my life says.
I technically went to NA yesterday, but didn't attend. Chris and I had a little trouble finding the Church, then we had to figure out which building it was. So by the time we found it we were late (only like 8 mins), everyone was like 30+ yrs old. and they were saying the serenity prayer and I'm very "unreligious" so I got even more nervous than I already was....so we left. We're gonna try again on Wednesday, but leave earlier.
Craziness ensued involving Brad, Chris & I later last night. Fucking absolute insanity. I'm talking assault charges potentially from Brad to Chris for shit that didn't even occur. And Brad's already filed a police report so that looks bad on our part since we didn't/haven't filed one on him for his assaults. &This means I may have to take legal action against Brad. I looked into a restraining order but I doubt there's enough evidence against Brad. and blah blah blah evil. blackmail. lies. crackheads.
Some of his threats would result with me in rehab/institution but frankly...that'd be a vacation.
First thing tomorrow morning I'm gonna take all my paraphernalia and break it then throw it in a ditch or dumpster. Also gonna conduct a massive clean up of le house. Make sure all of the "poly-drug-addict's" things are out of here. Start my fucking life OVER.
IN A NEW HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We're moving. It's official. The parental units put down a deposit today for a place in Houston..I think the Midtown area. I don't think I'd walk around there for hours during the day while tripping like I've done in T-Town. Of the three stories I get the first all to myself. I'm gonna be fuckin' pimpin in that place. I'll barely have to go to the main floor ever :D But cause I love mah Mommy I'll mingle with them...and they have the fireplace and real kitchen.
The move takes place sometime in late February or early March. And there's a tattoo/piercing studio not to far that I'm going to look into apprenticing at. I'd love to be a licensed piercer, definitely not as a career. Just way cooler than working at like..a country club or waitressing. There's also a Starbucks nearby *hallelujah*, so thats another potential employer...and the cashier girls were cute :D (I'm about to give up on guys...or just practice an extremely hermit lifestyle).
CAR. Gonna get one when I turn 18. And have I mentioned I am an amazing driver? For real. I'm better than atleast 3 or 4 people I know who actually have licenses & have been driving for a couple years.
BIRTHDAY. Yeah yeah, I know. I'm doing it again. Talking way too early about my birthday, but its the big 18. To celebrate the occasion I'm going to have something large, mindblowing, and accidentally symbolic of the freedom that comes with that day. I already know what I'm going to do but its hush hush until much closer.
TATTOO. Biomechanical tattoo will occur. Expecting to pay around $600 for it. Need to go talk to various artists/begin doing field research on this.
I've been thinking about the next year or two of my life a lot lately. There are so many options available to me but I'm so uncertain of what to do. I could follow my crazy impulsive heart and move out to LA or NYC, work for a year & begin alt modeling in a city with lots of work opportunities for such then go to college after I get a residency in the new state. Or go do the calm and probably more rational thing and just live with Mom for a year or two, go to a college in Houston, lightly work on alt. modeling, get a job at starbucks or apprentice piercing. So much to think about, but its not stressing me out. Whatever I do I know things will work out as long as I stay clean. Austin is also a possibility (Great body modification community out there from what I hear)
ANTI-WAR RALLY IN AUSTIN THIS SATURDAY
IwannagoIwannagoIwannago I even have Mom's permission and full support in it. I didn't know she was against this war until tonight. Pretty cool.
"No one should dictate to me what I can and can not do to my body" -Bear
Modify -The Movie
Krystal wants. She wants it very badly.
-I'm going to deal with whatever Brad dishes out in a methodical and intelligent (yet absolutely vengeful) manner. I know I am a much better than him in every respect. He will not drive me to insanity or blackmail me into dating him again. I'll give him satisfaction in no way. I could bitch for days, but I really don't think its proactive.
I technically went to NA yesterday, but didn't attend. Chris and I had a little trouble finding the Church, then we had to figure out which building it was. So by the time we found it we were late (only like 8 mins), everyone was like 30+ yrs old. and they were saying the serenity prayer and I'm very "unreligious" so I got even more nervous than I already was....so we left. We're gonna try again on Wednesday, but leave earlier.
Craziness ensued involving Brad, Chris & I later last night. Fucking absolute insanity. I'm talking assault charges potentially from Brad to Chris for shit that didn't even occur. And Brad's already filed a police report so that looks bad on our part since we didn't/haven't filed one on him for his assaults. &This means I may have to take legal action against Brad. I looked into a restraining order but I doubt there's enough evidence against Brad. and blah blah blah evil. blackmail. lies. crackheads.
Some of his threats would result with me in rehab/institution but frankly...that'd be a vacation.
First thing tomorrow morning I'm gonna take all my paraphernalia and break it then throw it in a ditch or dumpster. Also gonna conduct a massive clean up of le house. Make sure all of the "poly-drug-addict's" things are out of here. Start my fucking life OVER.
IN A NEW HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We're moving. It's official. The parental units put down a deposit today for a place in Houston..I think the Midtown area. I don't think I'd walk around there for hours during the day while tripping like I've done in T-Town. Of the three stories I get the first all to myself. I'm gonna be fuckin' pimpin in that place. I'll barely have to go to the main floor ever :D But cause I love mah Mommy I'll mingle with them...and they have the fireplace and real kitchen.
The move takes place sometime in late February or early March. And there's a tattoo/piercing studio not to far that I'm going to look into apprenticing at. I'd love to be a licensed piercer, definitely not as a career. Just way cooler than working at like..a country club or waitressing. There's also a Starbucks nearby *hallelujah*, so thats another potential employer...and the cashier girls were cute :D (I'm about to give up on guys...or just practice an extremely hermit lifestyle).
CAR. Gonna get one when I turn 18. And have I mentioned I am an amazing driver? For real. I'm better than atleast 3 or 4 people I know who actually have licenses & have been driving for a couple years.
BIRTHDAY. Yeah yeah, I know. I'm doing it again. Talking way too early about my birthday, but its the big 18. To celebrate the occasion I'm going to have something large, mindblowing, and accidentally symbolic of the freedom that comes with that day. I already know what I'm going to do but its hush hush until much closer.
TATTOO. Biomechanical tattoo will occur. Expecting to pay around $600 for it. Need to go talk to various artists/begin doing field research on this.
I've been thinking about the next year or two of my life a lot lately. There are so many options available to me but I'm so uncertain of what to do. I could follow my crazy impulsive heart and move out to LA or NYC, work for a year & begin alt modeling in a city with lots of work opportunities for such then go to college after I get a residency in the new state. Or go do the calm and probably more rational thing and just live with Mom for a year or two, go to a college in Houston, lightly work on alt. modeling, get a job at starbucks or apprentice piercing. So much to think about, but its not stressing me out. Whatever I do I know things will work out as long as I stay clean. Austin is also a possibility (Great body modification community out there from what I hear)
ANTI-WAR RALLY IN AUSTIN THIS SATURDAY
IwannagoIwannagoIwannago I even have Mom's permission and full support in it. I didn't know she was against this war until tonight. Pretty cool.
"No one should dictate to me what I can and can not do to my body" -Bear
Modify -The Movie
Krystal wants. She wants it very badly.
-I'm going to deal with whatever Brad dishes out in a methodical and intelligent (yet absolutely vengeful) manner. I know I am a much better than him in every respect. He will not drive me to insanity or blackmail me into dating him again. I'll give him satisfaction in no way. I could bitch for days, but I really don't think its proactive.