go go gadget relax! [ sept. 29 ]
dear dear diary, it is good to finally have some down time. i decided to retreat to my old hangout from high school...the nice little beach house a little outside corpus christi. it's getting cooler, and i think today's temperature is in the mid-70s. it's so perfect right now. so, so perfect. no calls. no texts. except from my mother, of course. she thinks i'm in taos, skiing.
i think i may be tired of lying to her.
i've been playing with the idea of finally letting her know what's up. it's easier to lie to dad than to mom. besides, she'd understand more about this than he would. maybe i'll spend a few more days down here. i have a nice little private beach (and i do mean little--but it's something) to lay out or look at shells. and now that i'm out of the city, the stars are brighter.
i'd forgotten what it was like to be happy like this taking a breather is something i needed to do. london was hard on the heart, i suppose. makes me sound like a weakling, but it was i guess. emotionally taxing. i'm a worrier--if i wasn't, things wouldn't get done the way they should--and london was very worrisome. i shouldn't feel the need to micromanage a team like that anymore. i really do need to get my anxiety in check before i end up with alcohol poisoning. or karl finally snaps and just leaves or something. but i dunno who would blame him--that's what i did.
ahhh! i'm stressing out a little now. time to go lay out on the beach and fall asleep. i've gotten a little more tan...but not too much, of course. tan enough!
later much!
i think i may be tired of lying to her.
i've been playing with the idea of finally letting her know what's up. it's easier to lie to dad than to mom. besides, she'd understand more about this than he would. maybe i'll spend a few more days down here. i have a nice little private beach (and i do mean little--but it's something) to lay out or look at shells. and now that i'm out of the city, the stars are brighter.
i'd forgotten what it was like to be happy like this taking a breather is something i needed to do. london was hard on the heart, i suppose. makes me sound like a weakling, but it was i guess. emotionally taxing. i'm a worrier--if i wasn't, things wouldn't get done the way they should--and london was very worrisome. i shouldn't feel the need to micromanage a team like that anymore. i really do need to get my anxiety in check before i end up with alcohol poisoning. or karl finally snaps and just leaves or something. but i dunno who would blame him--that's what i did.
ahhh! i'm stressing out a little now. time to go lay out on the beach and fall asleep. i've gotten a little more tan...but not too much, of course. tan enough!
later much!