bad feelings that don't have a name

[dekev]

Today was awful. I blocked this morning at school out of my memory, but then was forced to remember due to several statements referring to events that occurred at school. Then Instant Messenger was getting too depressing so I signed off, and suddenly felt bored. I never feel bored. I was thinking of what I usually do when I have nothing else to do. Going through the list... eat something? no I had mysteriously lost my appetite...instant messenger? psh, nah...haha, I ended up forcing myself to consume a piece of cake and then use IM. I'm a weird person. Well a comment left on yesterday's post and some new important life lessons I learned recently inspired me to write a poem. Haha, I'm really excited about it because it has a good start and sounds good, like the flow of it, and it kinda rhymes! Interesting that you'd hear of me as a poet since I keep all my good ones in a book in my room never to be seen by anybody ever! Well, once I improve some early attempts at poetry, I'll let people read them if they wish, haha. I feel so much better now. I think I'm gonna work on that poem a bit tonight. I wonder sometimes if I'm bipolar...

I almost forgot...HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

Actually, it really isn't a happy one.