Yes. It's another post...after another long haitus...in which I announce...hey! I'm still alive ( Read more... )

I am not the girl I used to be ( Read more... )

I do still exist.

For those who want to know: I only check my email about once a month. I'm only online about once a month.

If you have my phone number...calling me is the best way to get a hold of me.

I am not dead ( Read more... )

On the upside....I am no longer unemployed. I am no longer in a relationship that requires me to lie.

But. I hate myself. I hate.

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The newest aspect of my disease is panic attacks ( Read more... )

I was doing very well for a number of weeks. I wouldn't say that I loved myself entirely...but I didn't hate myself. And I felt like I was going to slowly work towards being in a better place.

Last week was rough. Was not taking care of myself at all.

And then I was loathing myself today, and it all made sense.

This is all so frustrating.

I would update...but I don't know what to say ( Read more... )

I just came from a meeting. You have no idea how good they make me feel. I'm starting to like myself again ( Read more... )