The way it really is..
So I had a conversation yesterday with Amanda that made me very sad. Nothing to do with us, we're doing great. But she opened my eyes to a few things that kind of made my heart break a little.
I'd like to pretend it isn't so, though. I am not sure what to do with this, or how to handle it. Ignoring it seems like the best option.
I feel like such an idiot, like I was blind forever. Or fooled forever. I'm haunted with flashbacks of what I guess could have been signs, and it makes it difficult for me to close my eyes.
I'd really like to think I'm wrong, or Amanda's wrong.. or anyone with an outside perception is wrong. They don't know, and they don't understand. Maybe they do.
Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion,
Maybe we're just a picture in my head
Maybe what if it could be
The way I wish it really was
Maybe I don't wanna see it
The way it really is
I'd like to pretend it isn't so, though. I am not sure what to do with this, or how to handle it. Ignoring it seems like the best option.
I feel like such an idiot, like I was blind forever. Or fooled forever. I'm haunted with flashbacks of what I guess could have been signs, and it makes it difficult for me to close my eyes.
I'd really like to think I'm wrong, or Amanda's wrong.. or anyone with an outside perception is wrong. They don't know, and they don't understand. Maybe they do.
Maybe I am hiding in my own confusion,
Maybe we're just a picture in my head
Maybe what if it could be
The way I wish it really was
Maybe I don't wanna see it
The way it really is